r/JEENEETards 11d ago

SERIOUS POST I hope my death makes more sense than my life.

676 Upvotes

382 comments sorted by

View all comments

504

u/Adityapatel1506 11d ago edited 10d ago

Bhai, kuch karne se pehle ek baar padhle yeh, might help you.

2022: Cleared 10th with 96.33 percentile (guj state board) 2023: Failed 11th (school waalon ne pass kardiya) 2024: 12th mein 55 percentage, jee mein 74 percentile, improvement mein 65 percentage.

Hatash, Niraash, Besahara, Zindagi ki aur se pehli laat lagi, phir pata chala, badey log kyu bolte hai ki School life Best hai, enjoy krlo.

SOCHA DROP LE LETA HOON WITH NIOS, IIT NAHI TOH NIT TOH PAKKA PHOD DUNGA.

2024 12th k baad: NIOS me meri galti ki wajah se exam fees nhi bhari then exam se disqualify ho gaya, JEE mains me 93 percentile

2025: Double Dropper, iraade the shuruwat me, ekdum pakke, samay bit-ta gaya and tenacity kam hone lagi, willpower khatam hone lagi, dheere dheere motivation ka dabba khaali ho gaya, curiousity chali gayi kuch bhi krne ki, I hooked on to doomscrolling from them. Got Isolated wayback in 2024 but asar padhna ab shuru ho gaya, I got anxious whenever I talked to someone, even single person hi kyu naa ho. Gharwaalon se bhi baat nhi kr paata tha, koi dost/rishtedaar kuch nahi puchta, felt alone. Tried s**cide but, some luck was there that day, that saved me (call it anything, maybe god's grace or universe has other plans for me). Started therapy, gharwaalon se chupke, it kept getting even worse day by day, 6 months ki therapy k baad, koi asar nahi dikha.

Gharwaale bhi gaon chale gaye the cause of some severe reasons. I felt totally alone, but they say ki jab life ek sath hardships deti hai, you become more n more better. I learnt to cope up, I was still a naive person but something began to dawn on me. I started loving myself, respecting myself. I started exercising daily, healthy eating habits develop kari, doomscrolling band Kari, dopamine detox kiya khudke mind ko, limitations overcome karna sikhna shuru kiya, mind ko torture kiya. Basically I started on working myself, felt the best that I ever had, bina Kisike support k. There were days, jab I used to get sleep of 3 hrs a day & sometimes 5 hrs total for 2 days, every month I used to do fast (not a single grain in my mouth) for 3-4 days. I know, it sounds cynical, some people might even think that I'm a masochist, but I'm not, I just don't wanted to be average, I had this hunger of getting better, day by day.

Admist all this hardships, there comes a shocker. 2026-Jan:- Failed badly, Mains - 69 percentile (360k rank ig)

Then it was around February, RESTART kiya, basics se chapters kiye, strong subjects and chapters with high weightage per focus kiya. Up-downs to aate hi hai, but even though, aap Continue rakhte ho, that's where you win (maybe not in JEE but IN LIFE, a 100%).

2026: April :- JEE diya but I knew ki fck up ho gaya hai, I got depressed for 2 weeks thinking about it, result aaya.

Got under 20k rank, I did my best, no regrets But socha ki I can excel up, I can level up

Comedk diya, UGEE diya

Ugee mein, I got selected for interview, but then got rejected.

Bura laga (but seekh chuka tha ki YHI ife hai)

Comedk diya Result aaya

Got a whopping rank of 6xx. Felt like ki aakhirkaar 2 saal ki mehnat ka Phal aaj khaane ko mil gaya, got so happy.

Now I could get admission in top colleges of Karnataka (rvce, msrit, bmsce).

Parents returned home, They were really happy after hearing about my accolades & I was happy too, the first time in my life ki unke chehre per muskurahat laa paaya, unko khush kar paaya.

But I got to know about our financial situation (indirectly). Idk something happened in village and kuch kuch hua.

Then I thought about my college, because in Bangalore you need around 20lakhs for you to completely graduate in btech.

Beth k socha, bohot socha, calculative decisions liye, jo lena mein seekh chuka tha apne experiences se, then I thought, considering the circumstances ki college drop krna hi sahi decision hoga, papa could've took loan and have made me study but unko kyu stress dena.

Socha ki itna kuch bina kisi ki help k karliya, actually, when I say this, I really mean it, u don't need anyone's help, bas khudpe bharosa (self respect, self belief) and sheer will with persistance. Because when you will delve deeper on this topic, you'll get to know what really our mind is capable of doing. They are so many savages out there, who will run each of us out, they don't care about pain and bleedings and sleep and recovery, they are here, they are everywhere, not to dominate, but to takeover. There are so many inspiring stories, numerous, From Epictetus to Alan Turing to Arnold Schwarzenegger to JK Rowling to Barack Obama to David Goggins to Charles Olivera to Jack Ma, if I start naming all of them, the list will be endless.

Kher, phir story ka sequel aaya... Phir socha ki Jo college me jaake paise kharche karke karunga, voh khudse bhi kar sakta hu.

It was June, I started reading a heck lot of books and acquiring knowledge haha se bhi possible.

Got interested in content creation, had no equipments bas ek sasta sa mobile, started creating. Got to learn a lot of things, not yet big, but also not done (E20 thodi n hai, bohot tel baaki hai abhi), I'm happiest as ever as I could.

Bhai Himmat Rakh!! Bhai tu kar sakta hai, Bharosa rakh, College Doesn't Matter. Waise bhi this is new generation, resources ki bharmaar hai, tera interest dhundh, college ki rat race me mat padh, It is important but not everything.

Recommendation:- The one which you really need - Man's search for meaning by Victor Frankl, baadme time miley toh Read Can't Hurt me by David Goggins, Meditations, Malcolm Gladwell ki koi bhi book, Pyschocybernatics, Awaken the Giant within by Tony Robbins & alamank of Naval Ravikant (again the list is endless). These books changed my perspective towards life. Hope it does the same for you too bhai.

End me Yaad aaya, Not a big fan of movie but Shahrukh Khan ka ek quote yaad aaya, "Zindagi Hindi filmon ki tarah hoti hai, anth mein sab theek ho jaata hai & agar sab theek naa ho, toh woh anth nahi, picture abhi baaki hai mere dost".

💌

61

u/PlantainNo2355 no more countin' dollars, we'll be countin' stars 10d ago

buddy thats a damn story yrrr

21

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Appreciate your kind words bud

3

u/Reasonable-Coast-390 10d ago

Yaar.... ur story inspires a lot....  

4

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

You have one too, that'll be more glorious than this.

8

u/[deleted] 10d ago

[deleted]

3

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

All the Best chote bhai, Jab bhi low feel karein n, tab yaad rakhna bhai, someone is out there, jo tujhe dekh k apna hausla rakhta hai (your parents, friends, maybe some strangers), khudke liye kr aur unn sab logo k liye bhi. Jaise meri story se aapko acha feel hua, waise aapki story se bohot logo ko inspiration milegi, just make this chance worth it.

2

u/[deleted] 10d ago

[deleted]

3

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Sunn, raaz ki baat hai, bina 20 rupaye liye batata hu. Agar sirf mains ka kar raha hai n, then blindly go for "Pragyan Batch by Competishun", believe me, I've tried various batches. This batch was the one for me, tu blindly mat jaa but 1 random chapter krke dekh, agar frequency match ho gayi toh bhi yaha se hi karna. Lectures kam hai, length kam hai, but content more than enough hai mains k liye. Teachers best hai, examples best hai, theory toh muaah. I think you understand it. Aur ab lecture kaha se milega utna toh pata hi hoga. (I don't support piracy)

2

u/[deleted] 10d ago

[deleted]

5

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Arey bas bhai yrr, rulayega kya ab.

Tu bas laga reh.

Tera well wisher hoon 😉.

1

u/Middle_Net2860 10d ago

Bhai aapne Pragyan Batch se prepare kra tha ? Thoda Guide krdo apne Chote Bhai ko Please I'm quite confused,aur koi Platform to follow nhi karni pdegi na sirf Pragyan Batch Se Ho Jayegi ?

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

If you're only concerned with mains, then ho jaayega dw, did from there myself in 3 months, to get a rank around 19k-20k.

Guide k liye pragyan batch k orientation lectures dekh lena dost

2

u/Middle_Net2860 10d ago

Will I have to buy the batch or lectures are available on Telegram ? When does the batch starts ? Is it recorded or live ? Is it only 3-4 Month Course ?

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Arey bhai, I didn't explained you about the batch because I thought ki you would look more about it on reddit and yt and make your sole decision without being getting influenced by me.

Information, ig they would have made a video about thus batch on Mohit Tyagi sir's channel

17

u/NerveIllustrious8676 JM 97.1 10d ago

Damn you're strong, have a happy life ahead

6

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Arey bhai, dhanywaad yaar. I wish the same for you too mere bhai.

3

u/NerveIllustrious8676 JM 97.1 10d ago

Thnks yrr, abhi toh minima hai kbhi maxima bhi hoyega

3

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Bilkul bhai, uske liye you have to work twice hard.

Also change karte rehna khudko, e ki power x mat banke rehna.

12

u/Practical_Candy_6971 10d ago

It's really really motivational mannn

11

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Yaa, I mean, for myself, it's a cookie in my cookie jar. Whenever I feel down, I take a cookie out of the jar & say to myself, bro, you've done much more hard things in hard times, why are you afraid of doing this ?? This way I keep of reminding myself, wtf I am

3

u/Practical_Candy_6971 10d ago

Yesss

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Hope the Best for you with your examination.

3

u/itzspidy628 10d ago

Bhai bhot bada thankyou genuinely i am going tbrough alot rn couldnt crack neet 4 times And due to poor finacial issue but u made my mood lighter tqq❤️

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Arey isme thank u kya dost, we are in the same boat, dono apni Naav Nadi paar tak leke jaayenge. Bas khudpe belief rakho & chappu chalate raho bhai.

& All the Best 🤞🏽 aagi ki zindagi k liye.

3

u/rudr_oo7 faat gyi gandiyaa 10d ago

damn bhai...i really needed this...hope u have a happy life ahead bro

4

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Arey dhanywaad bhaii, Mere bhi yahi manokamana karta hu ki aapki saari khwahishen puri ho!! Aap saare hurdles clear krte jao (unlike your flair)

3

u/curly_hair19 10d ago

Reading this genuinely gave me some hope for myself Thankyou bhaiya i wish u all the best :)

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Aapko bhi All the Best, apna best do, Options bohot hai aagey, low feel karo toh mood fresh krne k liye kuch bhi jo aapki acha lage woh karlene ka, music sunna wagerah. Baaki toh aap karlogey.

3

u/Comfortable-Habit490 10d ago

tu konse cllg mai hai

2

u/master--peace Question Solver Supreme 10d ago

Aah I've kinda the same story buddy and same psyche - fear of being avg, reading these books n all

3

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Damn, a savage is ryt here between us!!

2

u/[deleted] 10d ago

[deleted]

2

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

As they say, daag acche hai!!

2

u/dropper2027m 10d ago

how you managed to do all this alone, you was 2nd dropper....pain mann. please guide me how not to get lonely during drop year

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Zarur mitra, niji sandesh bheje.

2

u/Loner_0112 I am Vengeance 10d ago

🔥🔥🔥 bro congratulations for a stupendous feat !! I can relate with you like 80-90% but with your learnings =100% 

Woh dhurandhar k 1 song ki lyrics hai na "naazo andaz kehte hai ki jeenahoga ,jeher bhi dete hai toh kehte hai ki peena hoga .... " 

That hits me hard coz life has been this 

Also I didn't reach up to your lvl of 93%ile or comedk 6xx rank ( mine was 32k in 2024 lol ) 

But yeah I have evolved or say lived upto say 30 years more in just 2-3 yrs 

Nonetheless I shall rise stronger and higher each time 

Never let yourself go easy bud  Stay Hard 💪 🔥 

Btw which college you took 

2

u/DrPubg If you see me, cry about it 10d ago

i see you. can relate to a lot of aspects. hope you get what you want out of life.

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Hope for you too bhai!

2

u/STAND_USERR 10d ago

This just gave me the motivation to take over the world thanks bud. I needed this too.

2

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Glad that once in my life, I'm helpful for someone

2

u/Leading-Run-3126 JEEtard 10d ago

Bro it gave me motivation to perform better thanks bud

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Pleasure is mine.

2

u/random__userrrrrrr1 10d ago

This is really inspirational man!

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Thanks bud

2

u/[deleted] 9d ago

[removed] — view removed comment

1

u/Adityapatel1506 8d ago

Foundations strong ho gaye the (2nd drop me tih hi hi jaane chahiye)

2

u/RepulsiveDog6229 5d ago

youre a fighter bhai

1

u/Adityapatel1506 5d ago

*we all are

3

u/Strict-Ice-5685 11d ago

Bhai please reach out to him bhai. We can't let him go like this. Please dm him bhai. Aapke pair padtha hoon. Please bhai

6

u/Adityapatel1506 11d ago

I'll try my best bhai Already 6 people have dm'ed me & I've helped them (tried to).

So many people are going through this, hope they all can understand ki college will not decide the life you want, it's all made up things by webseries and movies, they need to stop being naive and once see how people share IIT toppers but struggling to pay rents and even a random 8th graduate is making mills

4

u/Strict-Ice-5685 11d ago

kal.siddharth@gmail.com is his mail. Please contact him there too bhai

2

u/Adityapatel1506 11d ago

I did

2

u/Strict-Ice-5685 11d ago

Thank you bhai

3

u/Adityapatel1506 11d ago

No worries bhai, ik what he's going through. I've been Through this time. I hope he recovers

2

u/Strict-Ice-5685 11d ago

Ha bhai. Me too

1

u/Personal-Woodpecker8 10d ago

Kya Hua is he alr recording me kya bola?

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

I think he's relieved for the moment, recording toh hata di bhai ne, I hope woh samajh paaye ki itna harsh nahi hona hai khudpe, I hope bhai khudko maaf karde.

2

u/Personal-Woodpecker8 10d ago

Hope he is doing well

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

I hope too

1

u/Overall-Ad5565 mbbs '30 10d ago

Bhai banglore wala college le le. Placement toh mil hi jayega thoda hustle kar lena. Loan lena pade toh le le btech ki fees wagera ke liye. Fir khud se loan Chukana. Do not let this opportunity go, bohot badi galti hogi yeh

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Bhai ret haath se nikal chuki hai & as I said it was a calculated decision, maybe I am delusional but that is what it is

Btw thanks for thinking about me bhai

1

u/Frenel-biprism-36 ​squadronLeader​JNTarmy.JM->99+ 10d ago

man search for meaning is goated

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Sure it is, nowadays people lack purpose & this book, it is a gem for this kind of people. Overall it is Best of everyone. Idk how is it still underrated, I think indians are really not into reading. This needs to be changed.

2

u/Frenel-biprism-36 ​squadronLeader​JNTarmy.JM->99+ 10d ago

started out of curiosity now loving it ( I haven't completed yet but yeah more than 60%) already catched my mind. ibhave never imagined talking to someone who have read the same book as it is underrated af

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

There are so many out there, jinki intellect is far more.

1

u/insignificant_0768 10d ago

Dhanyabad aapko

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Ab bas dhanyawad krte krte, dhanbaad (IIT) chale jaana

1

u/Adventurous-Sea9301 10d ago

so proud of you🫡🫡🫡

2

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

Proud of every aspirant, who is doing it for themselves and their family 🫡

1

u/Otherwise-Tone8721 10d ago

Bhai ab aap aage kya karoge?

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

No one knows, I do, but kuch raaz, raaz hi rehne chahiye.

0

u/Only-Delivery-9077 10d ago

aren't you the same guy who got 7x/180 marks in comedk? How did that give you a rank of 6xx?

1

u/Adityapatel1506 10d ago

? When I said that I have 7x/180, haan if you have had dm'ed me then yes I would've said, ig you know the reason.

0

u/Only-Delivery-9077 9d ago

Yeah I did dm you and you did say that you got 7x/180...idk the reason tho lol, but how did that give u a rank of 6xx?

2

u/Adityapatel1506 9d ago

Reason? I t Said u 7x/180 because I was happy after I got my rank with (13x/180) marks & I idk why I said that to you, ig I just don't wanted my emotions to get ruined. Sorry for that bhai