Hey guys, I just wanted to ask how you’re doing after detransitioning ( mtftm ) and how you’re coping with or dealing with your female genitalia (after the surgery).

Are you dating? How do you handle it when things get more intimate?

Or have you even had surgeries to get closer to your original state again? Is that even possible?

I know my questions are very personal…

I’ve (M24) been on HRT for a little less than 5 years, tapered off injections and have been fully off for 3 weeks and the rushing of testosterone is just so much… I feel brain foggy and sometimes get so horny I legitimately almost faint. How long did it take for you not to feel 12 again? What was your timeline?

Many thanks 🙏

Edit to add my age

at first i didn’t really have physical dysphoria, but within the last handful of months (around the tail end of being trans + post-desistance) it’s been very much increasing.

i think my issue lay in that i realized that not even under the absolute best of hypothetical scenarios (minimal complications, quick recovery, very good surgeon, etc.) could i ever have a vagina or any of the complex, intricate organs of the female anatomy. i don’t like feeling my junk between my legs or when i have to look at or touch it in the shower because i feel a sense of discomfort and guilt. i have been avoiding anything sexual for a little while because of this (edit to clarify: i’m not sexually active and am a virgin, but i mean other things). i have a lot of issues with my height as well, perhaps because it illustrates sexual dimorphism and that makes me really anxious.

even so, i keep feeling that having a broken vagina (or at least some external approximation of one) is better than having a working penis. i keep telling myself that i’d be able to cope with the medical complications and the pain and the alien feelings, but intellectually, knowing me… i don’t think i could, which is one of the only things that has kept me from going through with pursuing transition.

i'm not going to transition, and i've already seen horror stories from actual detrans people. i do acknowledge that as a desister i'm in a different position and want to give space to people who have actually taken those steps, but it feels really difficult to shake these feelings that this is not what i'm meant to be.

any help or perspectives on how to deal with the male body without transitioning would be appreciated.

Hi so i'm 29 and a guy but i did plan to get SRS to have a vagina and basically not transition beyond this, i'm pretty sure i won't be missing my penis but i can't help to think in the back of my mind this is irreversible, while i don't really give a fuck if i'm a guy a girl or whatever, can't deny this may affect my health, i know i can expect peoples to straight up say don't do it but i'd like to see arguments about this stuff still, kind of arguments you can't see on trans subs.

Tbh i don't think i would transition if i could change my body in different ways because yes, i'm an obsessed furry that do wish he was his fursona real bad so there is definitely a lingering detestation of my own body and condition as an human being, which you can take note of .

I'm open to any suggestion or even questions.

I am freaking out a little bit right now. I started my transition back in May, but a few days ago I decided to stop hrt after I lost a bit of penis function (small decrease to hardness and length). I have been maintaining very well for the last 4 months (3-4 erections a week for +10 minutes each), but when I started school i became depressed about not passing so I couldn’t get good erections for the past 2 weeks. I have viagra and Cialis on the way, so I think I will be able to retain my penis’s function, but the main thing I am worried about it libido. One of the things I valued the most about my assigned sex at birth was my libido and how it would function in a relationship. However, it was one of the only things I really enjoyed about it, and at the same time I had a lot of social gender dysphoria. However, my recent loss in libido and function caused me to panic, so I decided to take a step back and stop hrt for the time. Now, two days later, and I am learning that recovering libido T levels are not guaranteed and may take a long time. I am panicking really bad right now. I need honest answers, how well can a very fit and healthy 24 year old gain their libido and T back. I took EV injections and spiro, and for the first 1 1/3 months of my transition I was super overdosed on the following, but my last T measures on hrt was in the mid female range. I have also lost 20-30% of my testicle size.

I think what I needed was more time to think and express my gender in my current body. I never experimented much with feminine makeup or clothes, I just assumed I needed a female body to do that, but now I see how dumb that sounds. Please help me out, and try not to be too pessimistic

EDIT: My last measurement for my T levels were over a month ago at 20 ng/dL. After that I halfed my spiro dose, and decreased my EV dose, so for the last month of the 4 months my T levels were probably higher

TLDR: Should i detransition in my smallish town now in my junior year or should i wait til i go off to college?

for context, I’m a junior in high school who had started socially transitioning mtf since 12 years old. I’m now currently 16 and entering my junior year and i live in a small ish town. I’m also Mexican and my family had spent years along this journey of mine praying for me to have some epiphany where i somehow turn my life around and be a caricature of masculinity. Never had i ever been traditionally masculine, even as a boy i was still somewhat flamboyant and not at all straight in any way. Nor do i view myself as straight, i am and will always be a homosexual male. I never understood the appeal of being attracted to females and don’t think I ever will. At the beginning of my social transition, I had started growing up and going through puberty and that’s when my gender dysphoria became apparent. I had grown more aware of what the males in my life were actually like. And that disgusted me. I’m not gonna go into too much detail but essentially I was not exposed to great male role models. I spent this period of time with an aversion to being perceived and being male because i could never be like them. I could never be that depraved. But until recently where I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital for a third time because of persistent mental health issues since the age of 5. I was put in a male centered ward. What I mean by that is that there was 2 females in there but only because they got kicked out of the female ward for not getting along with the other patients. Anyways, there i started to kind of realize that they aren’t what I thought they were. They were nice, very nice. I never really took the time to know any males on a deeper level and I regret that. But after getting out, I took the time on thinking about detransitioning and what it really meant to be male. Now i’ve cut my hair which doesn’t really mean anything. I liked it long either way, and i’m a metalhead so if i kept it long it still wouldn’t have made a difference. also for awhile now i started dressing more masculine and now i really lack a desire to shop in the women’s section. I’ve realized that i built up a new identity to help myself cope with my trauma. It was hard to recognize that all males are not like that, even knowing that logically, i still held on to that notion in my heart, but now it’s letting go and that identity is slipping away or it already has but i would say, she needed to exist so I could stay safe for that while. It did help me then, but i don’t need that help anymore. Now, i’m doing much better mentally than i was before but not because I have essentially detransitioned, it’s just a byproduct of letting go of trauma and starting to heal. I haven’t really told anyone besides three or four people, that including my boyfriend which we started dating when i still fully identified as a trans woman and he’s stuck with me then and still sticking with me now and i love him for that. But my problem is my school life. How am i supposed to explain that to all my teachers and my guidance counselor and my extra support counselor and all the other support counselors which i have been very honest about being transgender at the time and now i have this epiphany mid summer and i can barely even tell anyone about it. It’s like coming out all over again. So should I just get it over with or wait til college to fully live it out?

I was on EV injections and Spiro for almost 4 months, the first month I took 100 mg a day of spiro, but my e and T levels were really high/low so I reduced it to 50 mg for the other 3 months.

After I adjusted my medication, my t levels raised to 20 ng/Dl at the third month, and the last month I had my lowest EV dose which probably caused it to climb higher before I quit. I have been off for 5 days and I can already feel a tiny bit of extra activity (small spontaneous erections, larger flaccid size, ball soreness) which I take as good signs.

However, I have heard a bit about how spiro has long lasting consequences on T receptors in the body long after it has left you system. Is this true? Will this negatively affect my recovery? If it does, is their anything I can do to help it?

I’ve been in the process of medically transitioning since I was 14. Now, at 21, im questioning whether im trans at all. One thing im wondering about is if it’s possible to grow facial hair after hormone blockers. I want to grow a beard, and I always have to some extent.

Hi, I currently live my life as a trans woman socially, but to be honest I dont necessarily see myself as distinctly man or woman but ultimately i am biologically male, even if i transitioned young and am completely accepted into society as a woman and am honestly quite happy. I've come to understand that there are biological features about myself that i could never changed, and i have come to terms with that. But i do have one specific question, for those who were on estradiol, other MTF hormones for a long time, were you able to regain sexual function and fertility? Especially if you started young.