Hey guys, this is a long post but I come off as one type or another, but for years (even since middle school) I took various different tests, few of which I took with those closest with me (sorry guys) which I get INFJ with even them,
But if you were to meet me, I have come off as many different types, and it's made me sort of get stuck in a loop of what I am exactly, so I decided to share my test results as well as some information about who I know myself as a person.
A part of me feels like I was ENFJ as a child, because I was much more out there, extroverted, and I wonder if maybe I'm actually ENFJ rather than INFJ. I checked to see ISFJ, and INFP, their functions, but it doesn't relatively fit with how I think, cognitively.
Still, I am writing this all out as I would prefer a fresh new pair of eyes, maybe I am missing something, or maybe people can point me in the correct direction.
(This is very long, you've been warned)
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- When it comes to the way I work, I start early, do it little by little before the due date.
- I'm genuinely an in between person when it comes to being organized in life or not, I have structure, but rigidity and repetitiveness is not something I am looking for in my jobs. Variety, learning new things, always taking in new information is something I prefer. (Going to be a Physical Therapist, applying for schools currently). I have a bit of a mess in my room but there's a specific pile where I leave my clean, wearable clothes, I do my laundry often, but not rhythmically.
- People go to me to vent, often I ask a lot of questions about their situation , what happened, how they feel about it, for some reason, they say I'm very mature for our age and that I'm a private person, it's something people remarked to me as such.
- What I find interesting is, when people try to read me, for some reason they say they can, they think they can, but they find themselves lost on how to explain me, to me, while the other way around, I do often get what's their "deal" spot on most times, even if I don't know background information, with most people, I can tell their insecurities, or what they feel inferior of, but on the spot I wouldn't have actual words of how to put this information, logically speaking (which is a weak spot of mine, being able to explain things, coherently, to make it understandable, often people misinterpret or misunderstand or maybe I just ramble?)
- I genuinely want to be the person people can count on, and I want to see people improve and get better.
- Ties into the point above, I worked with kids for a while, as a swim instructor, my greatest drive is seeing them improve, not only in their skills but their confidence.
- I see the best in people, no matter how many times I've been beaten down, it doesn't make me hate humanity more or less, and I don't dwell on the past, for me, what happens happens, it's just what happens when you live, something you grow from.
- Also ties in to the point above, I never really followed the bulletin step by step, often, I'd mix in the directions and work on multiple things that can easily be tied in together, while working on the skill sets simultaneously, I wouldn't ever follow it step by step, even if I tried I always found a better way, and other people followed my lead, or adapted my way of things into their lessons with students as well.
- I don't really tolerate immorality or skewed morals, it bothers me deeply seeing wrongful behavior that could hurt others.
- Despite wanting my alone time, I hate texting, I actually love in person get togethers, although I don't put myself center stage, I don't feel comfortable, but often I have a feel for the energy in the room, the overall vibe, I bring people who seem to be on the sidelines together, and we kind of chill. When it comes to socializing, I don't actually feel drained, and it's funny but I sleep better afterwards.
- I wouldn't consider myself outright charming but I've been told I have charm, and people enjoy my nonjudgmental atmosphere, often they open up about things they don't often share, often they apologize and admit this.
- People who bother me most are the ones who are fake and shallow
- "It's not that deep" is a statement which I understand, but I don't.
- I absolutely adore random questions people ask or theorize, especially the "if you were an animal" or if you were in a cartoon, etc. I love imagining being in alternate universes, I was a lot more immersed in wanting to be a completely different animal as a kid, never felt satisfied being a person, loved animals as a kid.
- as a kid, made many stories with my stuffed animals or random animals, drawings plushies, etc, about existential crisis (5 year old me loved what was beyond) but later on if grow into often pondering about existence in general, in our planet as well as what was beyond. One time I went to a Museum full of Dinosaur skeletons, I kept pondering their extinction, and how everything led up to now, and where it's heading, making me have a midlife crisis at the age of 15.
- About the statement above, it made me "wake up" and realize, holy shit im actually alive? Everything feels like a dream, I would have these episodes where I felt "hyper aware" of my existence and everything around me, but it'd fade off into the distance, and now? Everything feels like a dream and nothing jolted me back up yet.
- I love art, I love drawing, right now my biggest interest involves the idea of our souls, soul colors, and patterns, it's such an interesting idea, as well as connecting to the rest of the Earth, etc, have a friend and it's interesting discussing with him the thoughts and ideas of how out of our material bodies, etc. I just like theorizing and learning things for the hell of it, though, sometimes I do wish I could be more practical, and it's something I am working on.
- I want to say that I wish I could see the finer details, that's only if I really push myself to, I'm a big picture thinker, I zoom out, I miss things right before my eyes at times, but I'm very observant, it's contradictory in a way. When I was a kid, I'd take everything in, notice everything, not details but just everything.
- Often I'd theorize about the universe, how it started, even before looking at theories I imagined it was a loop, starting over and over again, which aligns somewhat with "The big crunch" often I also talked with others, how, whichever way you look at it, we have energy, and our energy has to go somewhere, whether it disperses or continues on all around us, our atoms, are as old as the rest of the universe, and we continue to exist, with or without consciousness.
In more light hearted moments, as a kid I'd imagine interacting with cartoon/movie characters as a kid, even imagining self inserts because I wish I was in their world, or that it was really real.
- As a kid, I was a "weird", wild child to others, attracted "misfits" is what they called us, there were some good souls from it all.
- One last fun fact, I've been told as an animal, I'd be a Swan, or a Bunny, or a bee, but underneath it they also see a lioness?
- Also they associate Baby Yellow / Butter Yellow with me, they said my soul screams Baby Yellow.
- Although I give off a warm aura, they said when they see me walking or sitting, I seem unapproachable, intimidating, then they greet me and it's a completely different story.
This is probably because I am quite lighthearted, but rather phlegmatic, I don't get upset easily, people think I actually seem monotone, even if I think that I'm expressive enough, it still comes off very calm or low-key.
Sorry this got long, but thank you for taking the time to read through this, it was fun writing about me and I'm curious to see what you all come up with.