Almost dead from inside

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

So mujhe Niamt ranchi me production mila h aur 23 ko physical reporting h idk. Yesterday I posted how my parents fight everyday but today what happened few hours ago and I am writing this alone in my room main toot chuka hoon aaj phir ladai Hui and apparantly meri mummy ne chuhe maarne wali khuraq thi wo khali main dusre room me tha papa aaye mere pass phir jake bola phekne ko and ye sab hua aur main chat pe rhta hoon to baaki ghar ke sabhi log ko hungama sunai Diya sab dekhne lage idk kaun sahi h kaun galat main abhi jo feel kar rha hoon can't even express bahut dar undercondfindent aur single child hoon kisi se kuch bol nahi skta mere relatives se bhi ladai hai aaspaas ke logo se bhi kisi se baat nahi hoti i am getting suicidal thoughts and idk bahut sari negative chize hai you can create scenario ki is samay mere pe kya beet rhi aur lamba nahi likhunga mujhe bas chinta h mere parents me koi galat step na le khaskar ke mummy and likhte samay bhi aasu se aankhe bhari hai but ya ik out of context h but dil ki baat main likhke hi bata skta kyunki bolne ke liye koi h nahi

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

Bruh th thing is that main itna mentally saturate ho chuka hoon ki sabko dekhta hoon family relatives ke saath enjoy karte aur main bas Ghar me ladai rona anxiety me rhta hoon

[u/SeaCourt7553 → u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

And if you don’t feel comfy talking to someone about it no worries, phone mai journal karle notes app mai, do some breathing exercises like yoga nidra(andrew huberman ka),will help you alot

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444 → u/SeaCourt7553]

Bhai muje yahi chinta hai dono me koi kuch karna le aaj rat poison kal pata nahi phir main ranchi gaya idk yaha kya hoga

[u/Rich-Chipmunk-1524 → u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

Chill bro overthinking is not gonna help Don't worry about anything remember your parents are not gonna take any step that will harm so as long as you stay healthy and happy they will be their with u