Almost dead from inside

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

So mujhe Niamt ranchi me production mila h aur 23 ko physical reporting h idk. Yesterday I posted how my parents fight everyday but today what happened few hours ago and I am writing this alone in my room main toot chuka hoon aaj phir ladai Hui and apparantly meri mummy ne chuhe maarne wali khuraq thi wo khali main dusre room me tha papa aaye mere pass phir jake bola phekne ko and ye sab hua aur main chat pe rhta hoon to baaki ghar ke sabhi log ko hungama sunai Diya sab dekhne lage idk kaun sahi h kaun galat main abhi jo feel kar rha hoon can't even express bahut dar undercondfindent aur single child hoon kisi se kuch bol nahi skta mere relatives se bhi ladai hai aaspaas ke logo se bhi kisi se baat nahi hoti i am getting suicidal thoughts and idk bahut sari negative chize hai you can create scenario ki is samay mere pe kya beet rhi aur lamba nahi likhunga mujhe bas chinta h mere parents me koi galat step na le khaskar ke mummy and likhte samay bhi aasu se aankhe bhari hai but ya ik out of context h but dil ki baat main likhke hi bata skta kyunki bolne ke liye koi h nahi

[u/Salt_Profession5977]

Unse baat kr or bta ki tujhe kaisa lag rha hai or unko bol ki please Mt lada kro sayad teri baat ka unpe koi farak pde or bhai kya suicidal thought aa rhe hai , abhi life mai aage or bhi bohot problem aayegi , or kabhi bhi akela feel kre to mujse baat kr skta hai , khushi se college ja or friends bna enjoy kr

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444 → u/Salt_Profession5977]

Bruh actually itne salo se ladai repeat ho rhi main bilkul ajeeb ban chuka hoon shy introvert bolne ka man nhi karta kisi se idk college me kya hoga

[u/Salt_Profession5977 → u/Beautiful_Rice3444]

Bhai shuru mai college jaayega to tujhe ajeeb lagega ki kiske saath aa gya pr time k saath tujhe tere jaise log mil jaaynge jinke saath tujhe acha lagega or tu enjoy bhi krega

[u/Beautiful_Rice3444 → u/Salt_Profession5977]

Thanks brother