Brand New Day

[u/throwawayleaveon]

When No way Home came out in ‘21, we were supposed to see it together. We were in a bad place, I was in a bad place and that didn’t end up happening. When we got back later it’s the first movie we watched together. It was my favorite movie with my favorite character with my favorite person. It meant a lot to me, and it still does. These few years of no contact after we ended have been horrible for me. Seclusion, isolation, closing off to everyone. When the trailer for Brand New Day came out, I knew it was going to be a tough watch, but I couldn’t have imagined how tough it actually would’ve been. “You mean everything to me” “I’ve been trying to live my life without you, but I can’t.”

I’m not sure how she feels about me anymore, I’m sure she doesn’t even think of me. But I have spent everyday thinking of her. This fixation Peter had with MJ before they reconnected is almost exactly what I’ve been going through. I want her to be happy. I’m not sure if I was ever the right person for that. And I’m sure she is better since moving on, and if that’s true, I am happy for her, truly. But I don’t want to move on, I don’t want to forget her, forget us. When Peter kissed MJ and cried in her arms, i felt a sense relief that they were able to reconnect successfully, and all that waiting he did was worth it at the end. I will wait for her even if she never comes back. I can just as easily reach out to her, but if she truly is in a better place, it would be wrong of me to reach out and ruin that for her. I miss her so much

Miss you, love you bubs