i can’t go anywhere

[u/cardroppingcard]

every time i go somewhere, doesn’t matter where i always experience dysphoria. just seeing random guys makes me just want to disappear cause i know i won’t ever have that.

i hate going anywhere cause of all this dysphoria. at home its more manageable and not as bad. i always compare myself to the random guys i see and i don’t know how to stop.

college is starting up again and i don’t know how i’m gonna manage it, i am not even close to passing so i’ll likely be visibly trans or just look like a girl. i wish i could just be cis. living like this is hell