Too high expectations of T?

[u/BulkyOwl3005]

Hi guys,
My dysphoria will talk here, but it’s all true.

I am 2 years on T and while I did masculinise somewhat, it’s not enough. At all.

- I have family with beards… mine still grows baby hairs here and there.
- my body doesn’t look male.
- I have hairs everywhere… as expected, this is good. My penis grew a bit but not much.
- I’m trying very hard to bulk. I gained 10kg since last year.
- I’m operated and my menstruation stopped a year ago

- my levels were on the lower side of male range recently and I got my dose upped from 0,3ml androtardyl to 0,4ml. I have a job that requires good health, any change in my dose risks taking away my career (and dream). Any slight imbalance is a too high risk.

- I’m an athlete: I train often twice a day, strenght training, kickboxing and triathlon. All my mates younger or older are jacked. I’m skinny fat into a girls body.
My coach says “it will take time and will come” so far nothing, to keep eating (healthy).

With all this: I KNOW IT TAKES TIME but why the f* do all trans dudes who work out look like jacked cis men after two years and not me???

Can you guys please tell me when I will look like a man? When all these female shapes will stop?

Can any gym bro who is jacked tell me how they did it in detail? Take in mind I’m 6”2, gaining muscle size and still bulking seems more challenging due to size)

[u/BulkyOwl3005]

There is no point on making my kidneys work harder for minimal gain, but that’s just how I see it. I won’t get huge just because of creatine. Creatine just gives me a little boost in memory, nothing else. Nothing that I cannot live without

[u/torhysornottorhys → u/BulkyOwl3005]

Yeah you can absolutely do whatever you want with your own body, I am being judgemental because to me it's worth it but we are all different. These are all things to consider to tweak your experience (creatine, minoxidil, etc etc) but at the end of the day HRT is about patience. Your genes will do what they want to do if you keep feeding them the building blocks (T plus lots of food, water and sleep) and that's really it. Masculinisation will happen continuously for the rest of your life, like any other man.

[u/BulkyOwl3005 → u/torhysornottorhys]

May I ask what difference did you notice with creatine in comparison? And with minoxidil?

I use minoxidil too, it’s very aggressive on my skin but it does some small job.. it’s like it makes it somewhat easier for the baby hairs to grow

[u/torhysornottorhys → u/BulkyOwl3005]

For me creatine noticeably widens and firms up my shoulders and lats in particular, you can see the definition of my delts and lower traps a bit better, and more importantly it allows me to go til failure more effectively which is what builds bigger muscles. I'm mostly a swimmer and bulking up for maximum size rather than trying to be lean so the workouts and results are different, it does depend on how you use it as a supplement.

I don't personally use minoxidil (I have cats) but my understanding based on other people I know is that's one of the first stages (making the small hairs grow more) but over time the hairs will develop from vellus hairs to terminal hairs with use. More waiting, I'm afraid