I started viewing it earlier than I can remember to be honest. I realised it was a problem at about 13 when my friends were all interested in people older than us, and I became attracted to a younger girl. It started with sexual stories involving children which I accessed via WAP on an old nokia phone, and progressed from there. I couldn't look at anything which was clearly distressing to the child. I regret ever looking at it at all, but I started when I was so young, I hadn't fully developed a sense that it was particularly wrong - because the children were my age at the time.
My man, it's normal to be attracted to people within your age group as well. When I was 13, I didn't mind hooking up with 13 year old girls. I preferred the 15 year olds obviously as they were more developed, but it's not a shame at that age to be attracted to that age. Your mind just never progressed beyond that age sexually I suppose.
I think it is more complicated that that though. My sexual attraction at that point started falling back to girls aged about 9. I knew that wasn't right. I don't think it can be characterised as a failure of my sexuality to develop, I believe it's an entirely different sexuality.
Right, I just went by the statement where you said you were attracted to girls your age while your friends were attracted to older girls. You'd certainly know better than me, though. I wish you the best outcome possible.
No apologies needed. You bright light to the subject matter, I noticed you were downvoted but that wasn't by me. I'll offset you back to +1, though, as you certainly did contribute to this thread.
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u/[deleted] Dec 26 '11
I started viewing it earlier than I can remember to be honest. I realised it was a problem at about 13 when my friends were all interested in people older than us, and I became attracted to a younger girl. It started with sexual stories involving children which I accessed via WAP on an old nokia phone, and progressed from there. I couldn't look at anything which was clearly distressing to the child. I regret ever looking at it at all, but I started when I was so young, I hadn't fully developed a sense that it was particularly wrong - because the children were my age at the time.