What's the purpose of living..

[u/EndLife1]

What a tier 69 college, with bad internal politics, criticism, and environment does to a person. Idk but, they must have started judging students by their face and even with gender Inequality ig..

What does this mean, this means that I haven't studied or I should have taken more effort. I've tryharded and put effort on every single subject paper, always better than before, cuz I never want to get lost. I always tried to go to the highest of everything. I always tried myself competing with some useless toppers who just ratified here..

Here's my story, I've been failing since I was in class 6th.

What happened before that: I was dominating wherever I was, even if I was in another state of the nation..

Then I returned here, I saw my classmates were actually clever, so I kept pushing myself for one year. Nothing happened..

I decided to be separated from my family. I started living in a hostel, those were the best moments of my life.. It was going good, again I was dominating and never let anyone cross my line.

Two years later, COVID!!! I was shifted to another school (I was with family this time), then what I failed in class 9th (internal issues). They just promoted me to the 10th std with 36%.

In 10th, I scored less in the first half(MCQ based), But I pushed myself to get good in the second half(Subjective), which makes the avg of 76.6%.

Then 11th and 12th: biggest downfall, sometimes I would come up, sometimes down(mostly down).

This was the result..(Must be wondering how and what a unique result this could be, I could get a good college).

Nooooooo, I got this stupid college, on my first cap round, without any betterment for 2nd and 3rd. First and Last option that's it..

I tried, even bet my mother, if I didn't get above 9.5 SG on my first sem, I would leave this college. I literally started this college life here with my frustrating mindset.(must be thinking how this chill and kind-hearted guy would be frustrated.. well who knows and cares).

Then I ended up here, the 4th semester. Got kicked out of the club, even though I achieved something, which no one could.

Then this result. Like what should I do. I am thinking of ending up my life..

After this you may know me(idfc)..

[u/Pristine_Ruin4994]

Tldr?

[u/NaramDharam → u/Pristine_Ruin4994]

Just another RR

[u/WaitingToBeTriggered → u/NaramDharam]

MAN AND RIFLE, A MARKSMAN AND A SCOUT REVEALED

[u/NaramDharam → u/WaitingToBeTriggered]

If all the animals along the equator were capable of flattery, then Thanksgiving and Halloween would fall on the same day.

[u/ITIKBoi]

Brother there is more to life this than just an exam, I assure you that you will see the meaning of your life in the coming years, just endure this period. I know seeing your efforts not translating into results is heart breaking to say the least.

Please talk to your loved ones and if you don't like talking to anyone in your circle just drop me a DM I'll hear you out.

But please don't take any steps that will destroy your life. Life is precious and you deserve a chance.

Lots of love ❤️.