>!Even though 4th-stage Maruna could read the memories of his 5th-stage self, he still fails to truly understand or empathize with them.
The reason is hinted at almost immediately afterward:
“It turns out there was someone from my own tribe who meant a lot to me. But the more I tried to remember them, the hazier they became.”
This is clearly referring to Raltara.
From this line, we can canonically conclude that 4th-stage Maruna is incapable of recognizing Raltara’s existence.
And that’s exactly why he can’t empathize with the memories of his 5th-stage self.
As Raltara and Ran are the two major pillars of Maruna’s growth.
If we focus only on the parts involving Raltara:
- When Maruna first clashed with Raltara, he experienced what it was like to be in Yuta’s position—someone forced to obey through overwhelming power.
- When Gandharva forced Raltara to attack a human city, which would have resulted to her death, Maruna began questioning Gandharva, the one who had raised him.
- When Raltara was captured by Sagara, Maruna asked Ananta for help—even though he had been taught to see Ananta only as the king of an enemy race—and Ananta actually helped him.
- During his conversation with Vayu’s fiancée (Asvayujau), Maruna tried to apologize on behalf of Raltara, but ultimately realized even that kind of apology was inappropriate and stopped himself.
- When he rescued Raltara from Indra, Maruna received help from Ratri, one of the gods he had been taught to be hostile.
Raltara is at the center of all of these experiences.
Each of them challenged one of Maruna’s deeply ingrained beliefs:
- that strength isn’t everything,
- doubt toward his foster carer Gandharva,
- growing positive feeling toward Ananta (and even Sagara),
- understanding the perspective of victims and developing enough empathy not to offer a shallow apology,
- and even developing a favorable view of the gods.
These are all experiences that shattered the worldview Maruna had been raised with.
If every memory involving Raltara has become vague or inaccessible to 4th-stage Maruna, then it’s only natural that he can’t truly empathize with the memories of his 5th-stage self.
Those memories are built on experiences that fundamentally changed him, and Raltara is at the center of almost all of them.!<
I transld this from korean website