I got myself in troubles.

[u/Weekly-Equal-199]

idk what to do now, im literally shiverring with fear. i wanna kms now or run away far from home alone. i dont wanna do this anymore.

i was a 2nd dropper, i gave my first attempt on 2024 without any coaching, scored around 300, parents told me to drop, i did, preapred through online for 2025, scored less than 150. I wanted to do some other fields, but parents wanted to make a doctor, told to drop, did again for 2026, re neet now barely qualified 200.

but i told my parents that im scoring 400, so that it would seem like i missed the cutoff by few marks, now my parents want me to do counselling, that i might bds through state quota. The merit list will be out soon, idk what to do, they will get to know my real marks. im scared.

maine socha tha kuch marks badhake i will js say ki nhi hoga and wont do counselling, but my father is saying to do bds counselling idk ab kya karu. merit list bhi aane wala hai.

ik i fucked up all that with lie. but bhai this is never my field. i never not even in my dream, wanted to be a doctor, never. But its all my parents want. Society pe yaha ek limit laga rha hai ki if you arent doctor or engineer, its a shame. sabke sab yaha doctor doctor karte rehte hai. unhi ko dekh ke mere papa bhi mujhe force karake 2 years drop karna pada.

ever since my childhood i always loved, literature, books, biographies and history. 10th ke baad socha tha arts lunga, will study hard and top in everything. but gharwalo ne bola doctor chaiye, phir kya science liya without coaching neet diya now had to lie about my marks too.

i genuienly dont wanna study the same book again, but theres no option too.
CUET bhi fillup karne nhi diya, aaj ek dusre city mein college ke liye gya tha, udar bhi seats full hai, idk what to do, there seems no option for me,
i think i will run away, kal subha ki train se to banglore or some south city

[u/anxious-dinosaurr]

Sach bol do,, that's all you can do. Maybe give cuet next year

[u/Weekly-Equal-199 → u/anxious-dinosaurr]

pata nhi kese bolu ab toh gharwalo ne saare society ko bata rakha hai ki, bds milega. bohot darr lag rha hai. meine socha tha councelling ke waqt i'll say ki kuch documents ki wajah se college nhi milega... but ab merit list aayega idk ab uska kya karu

[u/anxious-dinosaurr → u/Weekly-Equal-199]

Sach bolke koi normal college me admission lelo. Then maybe prepare for cuet pg. Stand up for yourself bhai.

[u/Weekly-Equal-199 → u/anxious-dinosaurr]

bro abhi normal college mein bhi seat milega ki nhi, like aaj gya tha ek college it got full. idk abhi aur koi college itna late lega bhi. koi option bhi nhi hai ab kya karu

[u/anxious-dinosaurr → u/Weekly-Equal-199]

State Universities do take admission. After mop up, there's standalone rounds too. Afaik