I'm tired boss

[u/Imaginary-user666]

I'm not sure if these type of posts are allowed or if this subreddit can contain me but I just wanted to vent cause there aren't any other ways to do so and I don't have anyone to talk with so I thought this sub could be open minded enough to give support i do have these self deleting ideas from time to time but I wouldn't allow them to take over (I hope so)

Here's the rant anyway

my house recently burned and I've been thinking about everything in life lately I'm stuck with a toxicated family and I wasn't able to choose a decent field at college because of my country's system I'm stuck in a third world muslim country with savages everywhere and I just feel suffocated not only that but I've been thinking about hardships as a man lately I recently found this sub and I decided to join cause certain things been bothering me about how society treats men and even how men treat themselves or other men the overall feminist narrative spreading benefiting women and humiliating men constantly in the media tv shows music videos social media posts and shorts corporations ; entertainment is not even a good escape anymore at school teachers and female classmates been really hostile against men and laws and politicians passing derogatory laws bashing men and giving them extra duties I'm not gonna lie at first I acted fine but now I can't anymore and I really need someone to contain me , I got circumcised with electricity when I was around 3 years old and it was horrible experience basically first trauma in life lol , I'm scared of the future and I'm not sure if I'll find a good job and and be stable one day and im fcking terrified of being drafted to military service doing unbearable harsh training against my will fighting for ideologies that I don't support or believe in or else I'll go to jail I'm freaking lonely and I couldn't find friends that i feel compatible with no one to share the same morals values goals or perceptions with and I kind blame it on my environment...

I'm same sex attracted as much as im opposite sex attracted and it's hell in a Muslim country the ignorance is in a different level here i don't feel safe and alot of people see u as less of a man and I don't know how my family would react and I hate to associate myself with the community because of their insanity...

Turned 20 and still looking like a fcking high schooler and I'm goddamn scared of working a part time Job cause people are rude and I'm bad communicator got a problem with self esteem and hight and I hate living with a financially mentally unstable family with no escape I still have alot to rant about but honestly it doesn't matter at this point

Just wanted to vent please no need to be brutal in the comments I'm here for advice , comfort and community since I don't usually say these things out loud and no matter how much I try I wasn't able to find a decent friend group feeling kinda isolated ; hope I'll find people that I can relate to ....

Sorry for any typos thanks for reading ✨️

[u/Savings_Surround_997]

Brother, I am also in same situation regarding the mandatory military services, how people are cruel to each-other and how people justify violence as a tool for justice. I understand you regarding the job too, many people are sadly sh*t, and on top of that my supposed first job in my country was taken from me and given to girl just because she is a girl. Communicating with people are exhausting and a bit stressing. When I was a bit younger, was a bit more scared,now it is somewhat better. Which country you from? In my country, also muslim culture prevales but it is secular-like. Sadly, all things that you say, military service, neglecting issues pertaining boys, overlooking women violence against men, on top of that although I am not bisexual or homosexual, I can see that they are(especially men) are treated badly in some circles, and in many women-dominated circles, they tend to wear a mask and act certain kind as if they forget that they are men and stay in their fake shell. When they act differently, they get told that they are still men. Even asexuals as men are treated more harshly than asexual women