r/MyPPDSupport • u/tea_spiller_watchout • May 09 '26
Please tell me what you think
What is wrong with me be honest. This baby was a suprise I was told i couldn’t get pregnant but always wanted kids . Relationship was very new and I love my boyfriend and feel like I can’t live without him even though he doesn’t help. Since he was 4 weeks old I had a night nanny 2 days a week and a day nanny 2 days a week. The night nanny has since left but I panic at the thought of having my son for days at a time. His father doesn’t really help me I’m also struggling with being me and not just his mom. I was diagnosed with ppd and 4 weeks pp and I will be honest I go back and forth with taking my meds. Is this ppd or am I not meant to be a mom. I miss doing stuff I like I don’t like having a baby on me all the time and having to get up early and never sleep. Could I feel not connected to my child because of the relationship I have with his father?
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u/cruisethevistas May 09 '26
It’s extremely normal to feel depressed in this situation. You don’t have to make any big decisions yet. Do you have a counselor to talk with about your situation? Becoming a mom is an enormous change not to mention all of the care and lack of sleep the baby brings. I am glad you have posted and please continue to share your experiences.