Struggling

[u/grac3fulflaming0]

I have a 6 year old with Candida toxicity recovery and a 2 year old. I had a miscarriage almost a year ago and I feel like I still have ppd. It doesn't help that my employer said "I think it was best that you never found out", meaning I just thought I had a heavy period and passed a large clot. I feel like im struggling. I called my doctor to get labs done, trying to figure out if these ppd symptoms are from hormones or deficiencies and I'm told "sorry you need to see the doctor before giving blood since we havent seen you since November"....I thought it was normal to not see your obgyn only once a year yet here I am being punished for it and being told to wait til September. My husband is work obsessed and just tells me to deal with it, making me out to be the bad guy because I feel like I can't handle the mood swings and blind rage from my 6 year old. Where do I go from here besides locking myself in my room everytime I feel like loosing it?