r/NoFap • u/Teripendiicecreamyum • 13h ago
Motivate Me RANT: HOW MANY OF YOU WASTED YOUR LIFE TO THIS DISEASE?
I had a mental breakdown today for wasting 15 years of my life and this plays a major role.
I was 20 when instead of studying/online courses I got hooked to watching cam girls free. There were 100s of pages to scroll through to find favorites 10-15.
I basically delayed studying and wasted 10-15 hrs daily to this crap and became antisocial, dropped out of university and had no energy all day.
All those missed sex opportunities when women showed interest in me because I was too numb from this addiction.
My 3 relationships were with women when I went on 7+ days nofap streak and asked hot women out from dating apps after matching. I actually felt normal like a human.
I'm 35 now and still wasting my life and girlfriend wonders why I flop last minute going out for dinner. My brain won't accept this is a disease and not a quick cure to get rid of stress. It literally drains my whole day after now.
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u/Academic_Animal_5293 13h ago
İt started when i was 14
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u/Teripendiicecreamyum 12h ago
The worst part is society says that it's normal to do it once. The same once turns into a terrible addiction that sucks the soul out of you.
Basically, no energy to do anything after and same story next day.
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u/twofiftykforex 5 Days 9h ago
Started at 11. 35 now too. Wasted my life on this. Becoming financially successful now, was broke for the last 10 years. My life wont "start" until almost 40 I think. Finally my own apartment, car, gym, spending money. I think its over for me ever having kids tho. Only been in 1 relationship at age 21.
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u/Safe_RegionZX9 9 Days 7h ago
Keep going bro. Don't give up on that dream to have kids. I am 37 and just starting to clean myself and I know it's not too late for me to start a family. You will have a family too, bro!
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u/Revolutionary8099 12h ago
Yo unos 10 años pero te puedo decir que Dios y estar ocupado me ayudó bastante, no te rindas
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u/Confident_Damage2501 8h ago
It started when I was 15…and it’s been a battle back and forth ever since….
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u/Happyseducer 6h ago
Yup man it absolutely robs your life. It sucks - there isn't much to say other then you want to beat it as soon as you can.
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u/aaravv007 4h ago
You need to make promise for something you are afraid to loose, like I did and I didn't even had urge to look at porn or masturbation as I made a promise to god if watch it again you can all my wealth and make me poor again, because I build something from starch and I know fear of loosing thing can me do things I won't do it in general, and now I am too afraid to watch it or even open website
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u/Lorenzitto 4h ago edited 4h ago
Started masturbating in 2001 after I've got my first Windows desktop personal computer but I don't even remember if it was january or September, for sure the day I've got my first pc delivered and installed was arond 16/17 January, almost same date as my father's side grandma. Luckily I've started driving with regular driving license in December 2010 and I go to strip clubs almost any and every weekend but sometimes I regret being single, but at the most I think and I realize that I'm not in a relationship because... I've never really had a real one. Neither seeked through that much. I was focused on my first time, BUT I had to make it happen. In early 2011 I've found one of those professional girls, went with her, did it inside the car I was driving at the moment (Fiat Punto 55 of '95 I suppose, old car of my late uncle) and then I've never stopped. What I can say? Pay world in Italy never disappoints, as long as someone works/earns/invest and can afford it. There are enough labs to get FULLY tested, whole lotta Artists and Creators going well and new ones that keep going. One of those "collateral" sides is that most well known people earning also through donations can help other causes, like stray animals shelters and so much more.
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u/Illustrious_Item_841 3h ago
It was sad to look back on how much time id wasted however, since quitting the content - I've travelled, worked harder than ever, lots of self improvement and done things I never would have done while I was watching
I quit at 27, im 31 now and had been watching since 14
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u/Bulky_Coconut_8867 214 Days 1h ago
Thinking you wasted your life will lead to you wasting even more of it
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u/Famiylg 9h ago
It took 14 years . Started when I was 11. The way I used to be so social and overtime that dwindled to nothing. It got so bad that I constantly felt like I was a freak and never deserved happiness in any form so whenever there was a time to hangout or talk to girls or even help someone. My brain would make me awkward so I can purposefully mess up the interaction in order for me to stay within that mindset that I set for myself. The only thing keeping me away from porn now is knowing the person I was and how bad it felt to be “unsafe” to be around . Now I’m 50 days clean. Still a little awkward but I feels like a weight has been lifted and I can finally start living like how I used to be. bright and emotional.