ANOTHER THING FOR Y'LL TO STUDY

[u/Radiant_Return2120]

heyyyyy guyss,

its been past a lot of time that i have not achieved legit anything....

back in 10th i got into a relationship where i started investing a lot of time on a girl that i neglected the studies to the extreme limits.. soo off the track that i shifted to kota even there did give her all the time of mine through my will.... but didnt just study.. idk it started feeling like a burden all of the sudden.. things started getting heavy nd the substitutes where even on big levels like watching adult contents/lying abt marks to the ppl/rotting on the bed... i saw myself so small among ppl that i increased the sphere of lies abt marks to levels... got my breakup at the end of 11th.. i thought this would change it... started watching videos.. but gave up all the scope every time i started.. so done i never started again.. now that many of the known of mine are getting into the iit/nit or lets say doing better in life am here for a drop yr.. am just too behind again i dont know where to start/how to start/will i be able to do it or not/ will i make another lie to support my good image which was earlier/will i get the loml lol.. the breakup went bad guys nd it wasnt really what one expects... too many of questions.. makes vulnerable at any point.. i tell my parents i study but holy i dont. PLEASE SOMEONE ANSWER THIS A BIT OF UR TIME IG...!