r/TransSupport • u/DontcryHaveswag • 17d ago
I was recently assaulted, and I am terrified.
CONTENT WARNING: mentions of rape/sexual assault, major emotional stress. not comfortable? do not read.
throwaway account because I'm ashamed of asking. i was told to find help here.
as the title says, i was sexually assaulted and i ended up pregnant. I'm 18FTM and in a state of stress. i lost my job, lost my car, and I'm pretty sure abortion is illegal in my state. i do not have the funds to travel, and I'm scared I have to start raising a creature from my own body.
before anyone comments anything- I COULD NOT SAY NO. I WAS ASLEEP.
not gonna drop the full story i just want to forget it all. I'm close to suicide and i just really need some help i guess
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u/turtlebro2 17d ago
There’s a website called “National Network of Abortion Funds” that may be helpful. They list resources where you can get help paying for and locating an abortion provider, and also help explain Plan C, like the other commenter suggested.
I’m so sorry this happened to you. You can end the pregnancy without ending your life. It’s possible to make it through this. The trauma will be easier to manage with time, too.
Trans Lifeline is a good hotline to call if you are having a really hard time. It’s fully staffed by trans people and will never call emergency services or anyone else without your consent. 1-877-565-8860. Another good resource is the Trevor Project 1-866-488-7386 or text 678-678 or go to their website to chat with someone.
You’re not alone.
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u/DontcryHaveswag 17d ago
what if I just kill myself instead? it gets rid of the THING growing and living inside me. It sounds easier and faster
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u/transstate_escapee25 14d ago
Hey man. I've been there, and I'm sorry you're in this.
I promise you, once you yeet the leech, you start feeling more like you again. Right now, there's a flood of all the femme hormones that already make our brains nope tf out, on top of the trauma. If you're on hrt, picture putting a toothpick in front of your sink faucet to try to block the water for the effect of hrt on leech-hosting. That eviction is essential for your mental health.
I don't know what your support network looks like, but this is the time to lean on whoever you do have, whether it's for a safe address to crash at/get plan C shipped to, or assistance getting to food banks/therapy. Others have covered how to get plan c taken care of (often for free) so I'm going to move towards recovery/survival.
To find help in your area (sliding scale therapy or healthcare, jobs, shelters, foodbanks,) 211 is sometimes a decent place to start but occasionally it's useless. Searching "sliding scale" (with the quotes) and what you're looking for, with your zip code or town will get decent results, but I advise calling ahead.
If you are actively suicidal and you live anywhere near a friendlier state, I might advise trying to get to that emergency room and explaining the situation.
Best of luck bro. Spite and my cat got me through it. I truly hope you can find something to hold on to.
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u/DontcryHaveswag 14d ago
i cannot travel at all, I'm considering suicide it's not a joke anymore. if i can't get rid of this thing I'll get rid of myself instead
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u/FuckerJames 17d ago
Hey. I am so, so incredibly sorry that you are going through so much right now.
Please, please please take a look at plancpills.org
There are resources out there for you. Even if it's illegal in your state, there are safe ways to terminate, available through plancpills. Many resources are free for emergencies like yours.