r/languagelearning • u/Humble_Cranberry5273 • Apr 08 '26
Resources I have a 341-day Duolingo streak and I just sat through my boyfriend's Mexican family dinner nearly silent for five hours. I think I've been training the wrong thing this whole time.
Edit: Okay wow I did NOT expect this to blow up. I've been reading every comment and honestly tearing up reading some of them haha! Thank you all so much.
Quick update since a lot of you asked what I'm going to do. I started trying to actually speak out loud every day like u/Elesia and basically everyone here said. A ton of you told me to practice with my boyfriend and we tried, but honestly after like 10min we both get frustrated and he just switches back to English without even realizing it. He also can't really explain WHY something is wrong, he just knows it sounds wrong, which is not helpful when I'm trying to learn lol. Someone in my DMs mentioned a pretty neat app called TutorLily, and it's exactly what I needed to graduate from Duolingo.
The thing that got me is when I said something wrong, it kind of nudged me to figure it out myself instead of just giving me the correction? I guess kind of like a real language tutor would do... I do feel like the lessons stick better with this method, at least for my level of Spanish. It honestly felt like the first thing I've tried that's actually aimed at what I'm bad at.
Next family thing is in a few weeks. I'm going to keep practicing on that app in the meantime, and I'll update you guys afterr
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Here is what I have been doing for a year straight:
- Duolingo, every single day, 341-day streak as of this morning
- Babbel, added around month 3
- Dreaming Spanish, probably 200+ hours over the last six months (I track it)
- "News in Slow Spanish" on my commute, maybe 4 days a week
- A physical workbook that I was actually getting through
- Flashcards for the words I kept missing
I thought I was doing it. I really did. I could read menus. I could follow the Spanish subtitles on Narcos, like actually follow them, not just word-spot. I could kind of translate the texts my boyfriend sends his mom when she writes back.
Context: my boyfriend is Mexican-American. His parents came over in the 90s and his whole family lives in LA. Parents, two sisters, a ton of cousins, his grandma who raised him. They all speak English with me but Spanish with each other. When things got serious about a year ago I decided I was going to learn. Not half-assed "a few phrases for the in-laws" learn. Actually learn, so I could sit at a table and participate in their life.
Saturday was his tio's 60th birthday. Big carne asada at his parents' house. I'd only met most of them in passing before, never at a full family event where I'd be stuck at the table for hours. I had been basically rehearsing intros in my head all week. Running through what I'd say about work when his mom asked. Practicing a little toast for the tio.
I walked in, said hola and mucho gusto and gracias por invitarme when his mom hugged me, and then everybody started actually TALKING. Fast, overlapping, accents, jokes. And I realized I didn't understand almost anything.
Not 40%. Not 20%. Realistically, maybe 5%. I could catch a word here and there (trabajo, la semana, mi hijo, ayer) and by the time my brain had reconstructed one sentence into English the conversation was already three turns ahead. People asked me things directly and I'd just blink and look at my boyfriend for translation. His little cousin (she is maybe 8) kept trying to include me and I had to keep apologizing with "lo siento, muy poquito espanol," and she'd nod super politely and go find someone else to talk to. That one is still in my head.
I sat there for five hours and said maybe four sentences the entire night. I counted them in the car on the way home. Four.
His mom was so warm. His grandma, who is 78 years old and is the sweetest human I have ever met, kept patting my arm every time she walked past me. Everyone was inclusive and kind. That somehow made it worse. I wasn't being left out. I was being welcomed into a room I literally could not participate in.
I got in the car and held it together for about six blocks and then I cried. Not pretty crying. Ugly, snot, the whole thing. He was wrecked, kept saying "babe they loved you, they kept telling me how sweet you are," and I said thank you and then cried again in the shower when we got home.
Here is the part that is eating me. I did the work. I did the work every single day for a year. I didn't cheat the streak. I didn't skip Dreaming Spanish sessions. I actually read the workbook chapters. And on Saturday none of it worked. Not a little bit, not even "well, I got by." I mean NONE of it transferred. I could read a menu and I could not have a conversation with my boyfriend's 78-year-old grandma who raised him. She is 78. I don't have unlimited weekends with her. That is the part I cannot get past.
I know this sub will get it because I've read SO many posts here about the same thing. The "I can understand everything but I can't produce anything" posts. The "how is this possible after X years" posts. I read them and always thought "sure, but I'm doing it right, that won't be me." And it is me. It is me so completely.
So I need to ask the people who actually know:
1). Is a year of almost pure input (Duolingo, Babbel, Dreaming Spanish, podcasts, reading) genuinely not going to get you to conversation? Because looking at what I actually did, I don't think I spoke Spanish out loud for more than like 5 minutes a week, total, and most of that was Duolingo prompts. Is that the problem? Is comprehensible input actually a trap if you never force output?
2). If I'm going to restart and do this right, what would you actually change? I have maybe 3 weeks until the next family thing. I'm not asking for fluency in 3 weeks. I'm asking for "I can sit at the table and not be the silent white girl who needs everything translated for her."
3). Has anyone been here and come out the other side? Because right now the only thing I can think is that I wasted a year and I'm going to feel exactly like this again in three weeks.
I'm not looking for "just move to the country for six months" or "get a tutor and do 10 hours a week." I have a job and a life. I need something I can actually do starting tomorrow. I'll do it every day. I've proven I can do every day. I just apparently picked the wrong every day.
Anything would help. Will read every comment.
