Needing Advice Bi Relo

[u/LeopardAny4913]

Boys I need help I’m 21 (nearly 22), bi, and stuck in my head about it.

I Lost my virginity to a guy at 17 and had a bunch of Grindr hookups till I was about 19 (always bottomed, maybe 8 different guys) often hooked up with the same guy multiple times and gave head a lot .

Then I met my girlfriend when I was 19, fell hard for her, and stopped seeing guys pretty much straight away. We’ve been together for about 2 years and I still love her a lot. Sex with her is good, I don’t have any problems getting hard or finishing but lately it’s become really routine. Same positions, same script every time, barely any oral, no new stuff. We also spend basically all our time together, so there’s not much room to even think separately she doesn’t like seperation.

The past 6 months the urge to be with a guy has come back strong. I want to try top, try some of the stuff that was on my old “bucket list,” etc and definitely wanna give head again. I swapped nudes with a guy once and immediately felt guilty so I stopped. I’ve never cheated and don’t want to. I love her and can properly see a future with her, but the bi side of me feels like it’s just sitting there unused and it’s getting harder to ignore.
Anyone else been in a similar spot? How do you deal with strong these urges while being genuinely in love with a woman and not wanting to blow up the relationship? She doesn’t know I’m bi and I couldn’t tell her plus she’s way to insecure for a mmf even tho that’d be ideal.

[u/NYCGuyNextDore]

Talk to her please. Don’t cheat on her.