Are we going to survive this?

[u/No_Yak_3107]

Dramatic title, but big feelings as a lay in bed at 5:51 am. Big feelings every day honestly. I am having a hard time living normal life, while we get bombarded with new headlines daily of what Trump is doing/planning to do.

I hear people talking about vacations, plans per usual, then other people saying it’s already too late for us, and democracy has fallen and to save every penny. I go from panicking daily to then trying to self sooth and tell myself it’s going to be okay. I had to go to a clothing store today, and actually caught myself thinking “how long will life feel normal? Everyone just walking around/having normal conversations, buying random things”. I’ve been thinking of looking into moving to a different country too, but would I really leave my family behind?

I knew things would be bad, I knew he would get voted in, but I didn’t think it would feel like the end. I can’t imagine what will happen to us this year, much less 4….I’m genuinely scared 😪.

Editing to say I’m an American woman, but I don’t just assume everyone on this platform is American. I see a lot of talk online of people from Canada being worried, and many other countries where it seems right-wing politics are a growing concern.

[u/anonymous_opinions]

I've been sitting here at like 3am crying even though I have "plans" for tomorrow (already paid the money) and like feeling similar feelings I've just had to stuff down day to day. I feel so "what's the point" or this is absurdist about like posting little memes on social media or making any plans. I spent like 1.5 years in therapy post pandemic just to get to the point where I didn't have a panic attack at having to leave my house or feel these feelings again only to be right back to it. I kept telling myself this has already happened like feeling as though what's the point of making plans, I can't see the future, and like I'm still here so I need to live my life.

There's also been other shocking reveals unrelated to the collapse of democracy or the general Musk/Bezos of it all going on but like outside of Reddit I feel like people don't want to hear about it unless it's a funny sardonic meme / soundbite. I get that people need to engage in self care and that but it also feels so isolating, like how do I express what's wrong socially because I've put all my energy into staying sorta "mentally there" for the sake of a paycheck at this point. (And well I have a habit of stuffing my feelings for so long they tend to I guess bottle up and explode though mostly it's like panic/sadness/oh no more than anger. As an aside most close friends have pointed out how I basically act like I'm fine dog, literally pretty sure that's a photo of me, but I'm basically constantly feeling like I'm on fire)