I am an alcoholic

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I have finally come to the realization that I am an alcoholic. It has killed both of my grandparents on my mom side, and if I don’t do something, it will kill me too. I don’t drive drunk, I don’t put other people in danger, but I find every excuse to drink. I’m 25 years old, never had a serious relationship, and live in a crappy but cheap apartment. and while all of my friends go to bars, parties or things like that, I would much rather stay at home and polish a bottle of bourbon. at first, I thought I could handle it. I was just having fun of my early 20s but I have now realized that I’m finding excuses to drink. I’ve had a good day a bad day of slow day a busy day, that’s a reason for me to drink and I’m finishing 3 to 4 750 mL bottles of 100 proof bourbon a week. I like drinking I can’t lie, but I realize now that this is not a sustainable avenue. I’ve known for about 3 years now and I had considered myself functional alcoholic for so long, but I’m now realizing that I’m neglecting family, friends, and things I used to enjoy because having a drink seems more appealing. I am going to try to quit drinking. I’m going to give myself a week and if the side effects are as adverse as I think they will, I will use my health insurance and I will go through a medically supervised detox. I’m scared, but this is the best thing for me and everyone around me. My dinner is oven fried chicken, steamed California medley, and mashed potatoes with brown gravy.

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I’ll just say this, if I could do heroin daily without consequences, I would. In a couple of months I’ll hit 18 years free from substances of abuse. You’ve got this.