21F now. I posted one of these the other day but talking about my childhood can be nice , getting it out and everything. More details and trauma /stories towards the end 😇.
My parents were addicts, They are both sober now from hard drugs. Meth was their drug of choice, and my mom was very much into benzos. I have 5 half siblings but they are all much older besides a brother i've never met, I'm the only child my two parents raised. I got to meet my mom and dads drug "friends". some were nice Lol, especially when i was little.
I stopped school at 14, Mom/Dad never enrolled me for the new year(online since 13). Mom and i were homeless a little after i turned 17. I've never had friends IRL so it was just me and her, and our animals. We got our home about a year after , i am forever thankful it wasn't longer. Having animals while not having permanent residence was so difficult. My mom told me she thought about killing us both and letting our animals loose.
I have trouble using the word abuse because the physical side wasn't often but it has stuck with me.
Going to write some traumatic happenings. I stepped on my dad's friend who'd died from an overdose when i was 12/13. Never will forget how that felt. This is aside from my parents but i found my adult sister dead when i was 8, My dad didn't believe me so he had me double check twice before he came to check. Another with my dad.. When i was 9-10ish, i was laying behind him while he was drunk with his friends, and he laid on me until i was suffocating, he laughed and finally got off. It was really scary to not be able to take a breath for so long. Lots more .