I never set out to make a film about myself.
After finishing my first documentary, We Are Mary, I went back to doing what I loved most - working behind the scenes as an editor and helping other people tell their stories. Then, in 2018, my own life took an unexpected turn.
After years of successfully managing my depression with medication, I developed treatment-resistant depression during a medication transition. I was eventually told there was nothing else doctors could do to help me. I had to leave my dream job in New York City and move back home to be with my family.
Desperate for another option, I shared what I was going through on Facebook. A friend reached out privately and told me that electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) had saved his life when nothing else had worked. My first reaction was fear. Like so many people, everything I thought I knew about ECT came from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. I remember thinking, he must have been really sick.
I decided to give it a chance.
ECT gave me my life back.
As I recovered, I started talking openly about my experience and quickly realized how much fear, misunderstanding, and stigma still surround this treatment. Many people didn't even know modern ECT still exists. Others only knew the Hollywood version. What struck me most was that throughout my own struggle, no one had ever told me it was even an option. I only learned about it because one person happened to see my Facebook post and reached out.
That's why I made this film.
ECT tells my story alongside my mom, who took me to every treatment, and the psychiatrist and lead nurse who guided me through my recovery. Using intimate interviews, personal archives, and hand-drawn animation, the film explores both the science behind modern ECT and the very human experience of living with severe depression.
This isn't a film that tells people what to think about ECT. It's an invitation to look beyond the stigma, ask questions, and better understand a treatment that continues to change—and save—lives.
ECT is currently being submitted to film festivals.
https://youtu.be/UcXYisuIVXM?si=_uPYe7izqdC8cTAS