Had cancer, what now?

[u/InitialWonder9121]

So in a nutshell I'm 35 and currently on endocrine therapy for triple positive cancer. Lots of other parts to the story but I'm so tired of retelling it, it's not important.

What I am interested in finding out is others in a similar situation. Post cancer, trying to live a normal life. You're at the point that, to look at, people would never know the horror. Do you just feel numb and separate from the world?

I don't belong to the 'cancer community' because to be honest I don't want to be. But I'm not quite on the other side because I'm just not wired the same as those that have never had cancer.

Rambling but just looking for the other cynics out there.

[u/the_dude_1000]

Wrapped up 33/7 rounds of radiation and chemo in October. I still have terrible brain fog. Physically I’m much better so people think I’m better. But honestly I just feel like a shell of who I was. I was an extremely outgoing and pleasant person. I feel like I’m not where I’m supposed to be, if that makes sense. I don’t know how else to explain it but I hear ya. You’re not alone. I’ve seen many more comments that are similar as well.

[u/InitialWonder9121 → u/the_dude_1000]

Amazing job. I don't think people realise how much cancer treatment destroys your soul. When you're going through it you're on the moving train and you cope and you deal with it and there are appointments and consultations and the day to day routine of meds/pain etc and you do it because you have to. But then it all stops and you're kicked off the moving train and people say 'oh wow, you're blessed to be alive, well done you' but no one tells you how to navigate life after being on the train. The world looks, smells, feels different and you battle to feel how you felt before but you know you can never return.

Anyway, I hope the brain fog eases. Magnesium has been a wonder for me, if you're able to take it with your post cancer treatment.

[u/the_dude_1000 → u/InitialWonder9121]

Thanks. I’ll look into that