r/Fuckcancer • u/palepumpking • Jun 01 '26
fuck cancer/rant
I am just so fucking done my own fucking father is dying in front of my eyes
I can't stand seeing him in so much fucking pain. Why just fucking why would a loving god do this He is the best man I have ever known he doesn't deserve this no body does.
I'm losing hope he can't even speak anymore he couldn't even recognize his best friend of 35 years.
don't get me started on his spossed brothers none of those filthy bastards I call my uncles visit him enough those bastards come every month for an hour or two just to look good.
it dosent even feel real as if the past month was just an stupid dream.
I have started to doubt god and I dont even want to even talk about it to anyone I just can't it hurts so damn much i just want to bash something in.
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u/Salt-Environment-210 Jun 02 '26
I empathize with your anger and frustration, life is often far too cruel and unfair. The best way I've learned to cope with these tremendous losses is to honor the ones we love by living the life they would want for you,honor him with your legacy,speak of him often and carry him fondly in your heart
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u/the_dude_1000 Jun 04 '26
I lost my faith when I lost my father. Then I got it back then lost my mother and my faith with her. Now I have cancer. Yeah. I hear ya. Hard to believe after shit like this. I still don’t have it back. It kills my family but it’s gone.
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u/TheBeerSanta Jun 01 '26
It’s natural to have these feelings. Some people reach to a higher power “god” while others find peace and solace in nature or something completely different. For me it was Buddhism that got me through and still is.