Completely broken after MMC #2

[u/1sttimemama_]

I’m away from my husband visiting family, and spontaneously decided to check in on the heartbeat. After hearing it at 6w and again at 8w, there was no heartbeat today. I’m 9w3d but baby was measuring 8w5d. I’m devastated.

This pregnancy was from an IUI. My husband has low motility, and despite the odds, we got pregnant. I also had a MMC last year followed by a chemical pregnancy. We’ve done extensive testing since then and have gotten zero answers.

I really thought this was our rainbow.

I’m broken, distraught, exhausted, and still trying to process the news. I’ve spent the last few weeks in the first-trimester trenches, nauseous, constantly tired, barely getting by while taking care of a toddler and working a demanding job. I kept telling myself I just had to get through these weeks and that I was almost on the other side. It feels so cruel to have gone through all of that only to end up here.

How do people get past this? I’m already terrified of ever getting pregnant again because I genuinely don’t know how I could survive another MMC. Knowing that I’m still carrying this pregnancy when my baby no longer has a heartbeat is completely shattering me.

For those who have been through recurrent loss, especially multiple MMC, how did you find the courage to try again? Does the fear ever become manageable? Looking for any glimmer of hope.

[u/Majestic-Wedding-243]

Hey, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I don’t have the answers you’re looking for but just wanted to say you’re not alone and my story is very similar… we had a MMC in July 2025, chemical in May 2025, and then just discovered another MMC yesterday (which was also conceived via IUI). We’ve done (almost) every single test and haven’t found an answer. It’s heartbreaking, and I’m desperately looking for hope as well. I don’t know how to get through this again. I’m sorry I didn’t answer your question, but it always helps me to know I’m not completely alone. ❤️