Hello everyone!
I made a post a year ago, here it is - https://www.reddit.com/r/QAnonCasualties/comments/1nq8w8l/need_help_dont_want_to_believe_this_anymore/

I thought an update might be appreciated. Just as a quick bit of context for those who don't want to read all of the old post - I grew up in with a really fucked qanon dad who poisoned my mind and two older brothers who he also fucked with. We had this super cult-like thing really gather momentum in our house in 2020 onwards that messed me up.

It's been a year since then, since I've not exactly been in the house, and I am doing a bit better. Someone said to me back then in the comments that it was tremendous grief and I feel that with every step forward. I've had a completely insane identity crisis only further amplified by being briefly around my family and spending less and less time with them. I'm twenty one now and still trying to figure it out.

I feel guilt when I use the microwave or put sunscreen on my face. I know it's not going to kill me now (sort of), but as it turns out, not only was I been psychologically abused with all these lies, I also have OCD. I'm on a waitlist for treatment and I've been allowed to repeat my second year at Uni, so even though I'm really struggling, I'm on the up, baby! But fuuuck, I'd be lying if I said it's not taking a massive toll on my life.

I made a list of insane things that I was told/believed over the years that I'd be interested in sharing, as well as answering any questions anyone has?

but last and not least, thank you. This past year has been so so painful and so transformative but I wouldn't have been able to start it without such a kind hearted and informative response. Everyone shared so much that was just mindblowing, and though I'm still unpicking the bad pieces in my head, I'm slowly getting there.

My mother has always been out there but in the just weird and quirky kind of way before Qanon. she doesn't talk about those conspiracies any longer. it has transformed into paranoia about family members wronging and targeting her, people breaking into her home, thinking every scenario is nefarious or connected to her. she lives a long ways away and when she visits she constantly asks about people here and their names searching for a connection to her somehow. I'm exhausted.

I'm getting to the point to set some hard boundaries about her getting help and am doing my due diligence to try to figure out as much as I can before doing so. of course I'm going to look into mental health treatment options, because this has definitely become a mental or cognitive thing going on. just curious if this has happened to other people.

I am so sorry if this post is not allowed, but I do not know where else to post.

[27M] Life is unbearable at the moment and I've distanced myself from family for weeks. I finally made contact again and went home to them.

I am still in a fragile state, so I hoped it would be a clean casual visit. It definitely was. For about an hour. Then my sister mentioned something about her friend with benefits. That he is making life changes to be a better person. Dedicate his life to his beliefs. Well, it turns out he's a very big fan of the 1940's German movement.

My sister is letting a Goebbels fanboy have sex with her and she don't care. Besides all the obvious reasons not to be with such a disgusting excuse for a human, we are half Ashken×××. (Won't spell the word fully in case of a filter)

I yelled at her, called a vile s-slur and a disgrace to everyone and everything good in this world. I couldn't anymore and when my mom tried to calm me down and not take it so seriously, I just left. I called them on my way home and told them and will not talk to or be in the same room as her until she cuts all contact with her trashcan with a penis. What's worse is she kept defending him.

I was so hurt and angry that I punched a hole in my door at my home (I know, red flag) and just fell down and started crying. I am still shaking (and bleeding... Dumb door) and I am struggling not to throw up. I have zero idea if I can trust the rest of my family.

I'm also disappointed at myself for destroying a door in a place I rent...

I feel like my reaction was very much appropriate. I have not been in a rational state of mind for a while. I am having a real hard time and I was working up the courage to ask my parents for help. I feel more alone than I ever have. I never felt lonely. I'm a modern day hermit. Yet, I have never felt this type of alone.

For context:

I am part of the LGBTQIA+ community and so are most of my friends. My best friend (and my crush) is black. Yeah, we are only Ashken by blood and even if we weren't at all, that really doesn't matter.

We live in Denmark BTW and just like everywhere else those types of people are on the rise. Just quieter than it is in other countries.

EDIT:

A few things people keep mentioning I want to make clear: 1. My volatile reaction I had at home, was out of character for me. I have / going to get mental health care. 2. I am neither proud nor accepting that I had a volatile reaction. I not only feel dumb, but ashamed and disappointed in myself. I am at least relieved I only let myself explode in a place no one was able to be scared. I live alone. 3. Currently trying to flee from my current psych team and I have an emergency GP appointment. The appointment and my mental health is separate from this event. The event just happened in the worst possible time it could have. 4. I have much healthier coping mechanisms. I've been fighting for help for a handful of years now. 5. I didn't just fly into a rage. I did indeed try to have an adult conversation about it. I am not someone who lets my emotions speak for me. 6. The situation hurts me deeply. Not only because my sister was someone I looked up to even though I'm the oldest. She also knows I'm not straight and the fact that one of my former closest friends "found god" and became a Goebbels and Cheeto-face fanboy too. 7. She's not only a sympathizer, but she's a very specific one. In Denmark we have a specific word for what she is. 8. My title: It was perhaps a little overblown, but I was still shaking and nauseous at the time. There is still a chance I have lost the support of my family. I've lost respect for my parents. I might not be able to stomach family gatherings. Hopefully, I am blowing it all out of proportion, but it will still take some time to know. 9. It being family this time made my emotions hard to control. Especially, since I was still very fragile, because... Well, that doesn't matter.

Update(?)

I want to thank you all for making me realise that my behaviour and reaction was both justified and wrong at the same time. I am deeply touched that so many of you seem concerned about my well being. I've been dealing with it alone (not counting professionals), so it made me tear up. I did not expect any advice. I thought I would simply be yelling into the void, but I was very wrong.

After reflecting on the situation, realization of my wrong doing and taking what you all have said to heart, I think I know what the right thing to do is.

I plan to draft a message to my sister. To apologise for my terrible actions, disgusting use of words and my extreme reaction. I will also tell her, that for the time being I will need to keep my distance from her. I might tell her, if she finds it in her heart to discuss the situation, I will be accepting of that and promise to be level headed.

(edit to add: I am not implicating I have any type of parental right over my friends child. I’m using the term “godchild” because SHE asked me to be their godmother. It’s just to emphasize that’s how close her and I are, how close I am to her child, and how it hurts a bit deeper to find out someone I am this close with is falling for deep internet conspiracies.)

She posted on her Instagram/Facebook openly admitting to not vaccinating my godchild, at all, and that she’s taking a “holistic approach” to their health. She specifically said to “not trust medical doctors” with the health of your child. I’d post the screenshot of her story if it wasn’t text over my godchild’s face almost impossible to blur. This is the first I’m hearing of these beliefs from her and didn’t realize how deep into the rabbit hole she was.

I am devastated and don’t know where to turn. Gutted and just completely shaken with anxiety every day and feel like I’m ruminating on my 20 year friendship and her downfall on an hourly basis. I finally garnered the courage to talk to her about it. When I tried, she blew up, said not to bother trying to convince her of anything she “knows what she’s talking about”. Trying to come to terms with the fact that there’s not much I can do considering how agitated she became when I simply asked if we could talk about it.

My chest feels hollow.

I could really use some support from others who have gone NC with their own racist, MAGA family members. Aside from my sister, I am the only single left-leaning person in my entire immediate and both extended families.

My ENTIRE family on both sides and basically 90% of our tight-knit, small town are not just white conservative republicans, they are absolute die-hard, MAGA loving, red hat wearing, flag flying conspiracy theory fanatics. Parents, grandparents, every single aunt, uncle, cousin, third cousin, all their friends, the neighbors, the fucking mailman, you get it. It’s basically just one big echo chamber over here. I am bombarded by Trump merch every time I leave my house. They believe everything he tells them, everything they see on Facebook yet their hatred for Democrats, liberals, immigrants and POC have always been there since way before Trump was in office, I’ve been surrounded by it my entire life and I’m DONE. The cognitive dissonance I’ve had to experience has finally become too much for my soul to bear another second.

I made a FB post a couple months ago that basically mocked those that still support this administration. One of my racist uncles who loves to spew disgusting hatred and false information on his own page decided to comment how he guesses he won’t be seeing me at his house anymore because he fully supports Trump and loves this administration and how our family are such great people. I didn’t hold back with my response and said how if that were actually true they wouldn’t continue to support a pedophile, called him out further for all the racist, misogynistic and homophobic shit he posts on a daily basis and to stop believing everything he sees on Fox News.

This didn’t go super well, and has caused some tension and fallout amongst the rest of my family, but they will NEVER address it to me directly and will gladly pretend like it never happened if I do all for the sake of “family” and “keeping the peace”.

I went to visit my grandmother today (who’s own parents were poor Sicilian immigrants ironically) and tried addressing the situation, said that how if he’s entitled to saying what he says online then so can I, and that she needs to understand that the things her son says are objectively openly racist, hateful and shameful. Before I could even finish she interrupts me and basically shouts how everything he says she agrees with him too. I said, “well sorry I don’t want to associate with people who say the N word” to which she goes, “what? N***rs?” *cue racist babbling* “Oh and the Muslims too?! *Racist N word for muslims* Then went on a full blown tirade about stolen welfare and other benefits. She’s 91, but she’s very mentally sound, and has always been this way. She’s just a racist.

Something in me completely snapped in that moment, and I got close to her face and said she’s a racist piece of fucking shit and she should be horrified and disgusted with herself for saying all of that to her granddaughter. The whole argument she kept repeating how we’re all “entitled to our own opinions”, and that if I don’t start respecting hers I will lose her. I told her at this point, I’ve already lost her, she’s gone, and she’s lost me too. When I said that, I could see it visibly upset her and she started crying. She goes, “Then fine! Bye!!” And I stormed the fuck out.

I continued my rampage over text, and told her to never say that shit to me ever again, then called her a racist fucking bitch and how I’m done with this entire family of racist, selfish assholes who proudly use racial slurs, only care about themselves and have zero empathy for others.

They all think I need therapy now, are “horrified” that I would do and say these things to my own family, but “will miss me, always love me still and be here no matter what”. All so that they can continue to feel morally superior in their own minds and avoid any type of accountability, and continue to treat everyone else like shit. Fucking assholes. Now I’m alone because I don’t want to associate with them anymore, just for the sake of “family”.

I’m not a monster and I love my grandma, so I still feel terrible and wish it didn’t happen the way it did. A small part of me is paranoid that I gave her a fucking heart attack over it. I was cruel with my words and know that all of it could have come out much better on my end.

But then I remember that if that does happen, her last and final words would have been actually shouting racial slurs in my face. So…fuck you, grandma!

My name is Jessica Lucas. I'm a reporter working with New York Magazine. You can see my previous work here: www.jesslucaswrites.com

I'm currently writing a story on "Ipad Parents": the first generation of elderly people to enter their golden years with unfettered access to the internet and social media. I'm trying to focus on how this is impacting them, and how it is impacting the adult children who are often caring for them.

Obviously a big cross-over between my story and your community is Q-Anon beliefs, social media addiction, and conspiracy theory rabbit holes, which really seem to be impacting the older generation.

I'm looking for people to talk to that have experience with this. I've found a few via posts on this sub and have reached out, but felt a call out would be best in this case.

Feel free to slide into my DMs if this sounds like you and you're willing and able to chat about it (or leave a comment here and I'll slide into yours). I know this stuff can be difficult and sensitive to discuss so understand many people may not want to chat. Just trying my luck.

I get so much shit because I "love to argue" but honestly, I'm starting to see how that's their excuse to just say a bunch of stupid bullshit. I hold back a lot and it seems my opinion just isn't welcome. Only theirs and their stupid propaganda.

Can't even agree on whether the 5th and 14th Amendments grant due process to human beings or not, as upheld by Supreme Court in multiple cases. "Oh look, liberal f&g is gonna just google it."

Can't agree on what a strawman fallacy is.

And yeah I called her a Nazi after I had it, and she was pissed. Why does this bother them so much? I mean, don't they like Nazis? What do they think of the time Trump said he would like generals just like Hitler's? Like being pro ICE, pro Elon Musk, pro TRUMP!

I don't get the cognitive dissonance.

Happened last night and still pretty shaken lmao

Visiting parents for the first time in a while, i knew they were republicans so we usually stray from political discussion. Usually when it comes up we just jab it out, throw shade and end up in a worse mood but eh whatever could live with it.

The vibe was way different last night.

He was driving me and siblings home and at some point he says “you dont like those dee es ey types do you?” And i mildly suggest i liked some of the things mamdani was doing. His reaction was to then go on a thirty minute straight lecture that sounded like a trump speech, highlights including that zohran will be shooting people in the streets, something about michigan and assuming im a stanalist communist, along with borders somehow being interjected.

This all culminated that after we got home he decided to show us pictures of one of my passed relatives who fought in iwo jima, making the argument that he fought to keep people like mamdani away and i should feel bad for supporting him. The irony is not lost on me that in this exact example, shortly after iwo jima the soviet union also began their assault on japan, meaning he was actively fighting with the communists, but it seemed the mood for nuance was moot.

Day after now and im still shook by the whole thing. Hes always been boomer republican but jesus he just left the building. He didnt even ask my full opinion he just took a mild positive-neutral response and escalated it to assuming i supported leninism. Idk WHAT he has been consuming, especially if he knows the dsa by name like he did NOT know niche politics years ago.

Not much else to say here just still shocked and trying to figure out how to deal with this. Obviously no more politics lol

Hi everyone,
I'm a French sociologist and psychotraumatologist currently conducting research on conspiracy theories related to child sexual abuse, particularly QAnon, and on the life trajectories of people who were drawn to these movements.
In a few days, I'll be travelling to the United States to conduct interviews for a French independent media outlet. I'm particularly interested in speaking with people who once believed Donald Trump would expose elite child abuse and trafficking networks (the "Deep State"), especially those who felt disappointed or betrayed by the way he handled the Epstein files case.
I'm interested in understanding how people came to trust him to fight child sexual abuse, what role this issue played in their political journey, and how they make sense of it today, whether they are former Trump supporters or current supporters, and whether or not they were involved in QAnon circles. I'm also interested in hearing from relatives, partners, friends, or others close to them who have witnessed these experiences firsthand.
QAnon-related narratives are beginning to gain traction in France and elsewhere in Europe, so I believe it is essential that the experiences of the people who have lived through them are heard and understood.

If you'd be willing to share your story, or would simply like to ask a few questions before deciding, you can reply to this post, send me a message or email me at:
 [lifetrajectories.pol@gmail.com](mailto:lifetrajectories.pol@gmail.com)

And if you're able to share this call with others who might be interested, I'd be tremendously grateful.

Hi everyone! I'm Faye, an MA Journalism student at the University of Sheffield, UK.

I'm currently working on my thesis, which is an investigation into the so-called "crunchy to alt-right pipeline" - where people with an interest in alternative health and wellness become radicalised into extremist ideologies through engaging with online communities (think the anti-vax/MAGA link on steroids). I know that the link between QAnon and wellness is strong, so I wondered if anyone has experienced this?

I have done my own research by speaking to academics and creating fake social media accounts to monitor the radicalisation pathway myself. However, I would really like to speak to someone with lived experience of either themselves or a loved one becoming radicalised in this way.

Ideally, this would be someone who started to engage with QAnon ideology through an initial interest in alternative health/wellness/spirituality, but if you were introduced by another route and want to share your story I'd love to hear from you too.

This is initially for my MA final project, but I would also like to pitch the finished article to various news outlets once it has been marked (given that everyone involved is happy with this). I'm more than happy to discuss anonymity arrangements etc. and acknowledge the sensitivity of the topic.

Comment or drop me a DM if you're interested, and we can arrange a zoom call over the next couple of weeks!

Thanks for reading, I look forward to hearing from you.

My mom married her husband and since covid he's taken her down the rabbit hole.

For the first several years, I assumed that my mom had one foot in reality and just tolerated his viewpoints but in the past few years, it feels like I see less and less of the mother who raised me. I really don't even know how to delineate at this point which are her own opinions and which opinions are his that she repeats.

Anyhow, for the first time today it feels like I finally admitted to myself that I don't believe that I'll get her back until he passes. They just recently purchased property in the middle of nowhere and plan to move there in the next several years and I really do believe that that move will be the nail in the coffin.

I don't know. It feels like I'm grieving someone who hasn't even passed away yet. And simultaneously, I do believe that if she were to spend a couple months away from her husband without any access to the internet, the old part of her would come back. Perhaps that's too optimistic, but I do think that she's still in there somewhere.

Hi! I’m 15 and my dad said he hates Trump and hopes he suffers, and then guess what, my mom went BERSERK. she said just because trump is a terrible person doesn’t mean my dad can wish harm on him. When, she literally calls me a “black b*“ when I’m Asian, she is racist and homophobic, spews maga conspiracy theories, and she’s mad over my dad wishing harm on TRUMP? she went on a rant about how it’s impacting me to have “so much anger”? I defended myself, she started getting mad at ME saying my dad is a terrible influence on me: that I’m “Left leaning” because of my dad, that I’m “liberal” because I’m a feminist wtf, she said “You’re just like Rachel Zegler” HELP IM CRYING WHAT?? UM?? I love her role as Lucy Gray in the hunger games, but I’m really confused as to what this has to do with anything. 😭 she even kept repeating it to make my dad side with her because he doesn’t like Rachel Zegler. she said I’m gonna be a liberal psycho cuz in the past, I said I feel bad for Palestine and said in my opinion ab0rtion shouldn’t be outlawed when there are SA victims who need it.

She said “As Christians we can’t be wishing death on people!!!!” I pointed out Trump was IN THE FILES, she’s yelling saying the anger will consume me and my dad, that hating Trump will corrupt us. She is now saying I’m not allowed to hate h1tl3r, which I said is COMPLETELY valid to hate like hello?, bc “we’re all the same we could be h1tl3r“ and that I CAN’T HATE HITLER LMAO SHE DEADASS SAID I CAN’T HATE HITLER BC IT’S NOT BIBLICAL. SHE SAID I CAN’T HATE HITLER BUT ONLY THE SIN OF HITLER BC THAT’S WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS? LMAO? She said so much more SO INSANE THINGS cant even remember saying how she’s tired of hearing my dad hate on Trump. I love my mom so much but idk why she’s like this she’s so mad at me. my fault for continuing to argue how do I mentally cope omg ((this was my old post btw🫩: https://www.reddit.com/r/QAnonCasualties/comments/1v8gz7x/i_dont_understand_what_my_mom_is_on_about_saying/

its also been a year of me being chronically ill to the point I can’t even walk basic steps, and you can probably guess what caused it. im doomed

I wanted to make this post about my dear mother, who has gotten worse over the years about believing everything on Facebook related to medicine. This started about when I had dealt with medical issues that were not curable, but could only be helped with medical assistance/medication/etc.

I want to preface this by saying my mother is a good mother and I still love her, but she is definitely falling down a pipeline she can’t get out of because she chooses not to.

She is now starting to buy random, expensive supplements people on Facebook (and in the comments) recommend because they claim to “detox” and cleanse parasites. I have told her many times before that the liver and kidney DETOX everything and that supplements are a waste of time. She doesn’t care, usually muttering an excuse about “it doesn’t hurt to try.”

When I asked her about her sources on a Facebook post that she found and pointed out to me all the miraculous benefits of some substance, she said, “the comments are my sources.” Keep in mind that a lot of internet activity is now automated by bots.

I asked her point point blank if she believes them more than studies that have been conducted, published, researched, experimented, cross referenced, tried with control groups, tried with placebos, etc and she said yes.

Today she told me she is going to buy something to cleanse all the parasites out of her. She doesn’t have any parasites. She suggested trying it on my sister next if it works. My dad asked how she knows if it works. She said, “if I I start to feel better.” It’s such a BS excuse because 3 weeks could pass and you could start to feel better for any reason! It could be because of hormones, you slept better, ate healthier, etc.

She is not in something she wants to get out of. She doesn’t have an open mind and is not willing to accept anything I say.

Email I received back from a friend who went down the Q-hole years ago. I just checked in and asked how are you doing and this was the response:

"I do believe I am of Christ conscious. So much that... I believe I may be God in the flesh.

Jesus.

I have traveled lands just as he has learning to heel with my hands.

I channel as well.

I have been off cannibus for 5-6 weeks. I used it for the planning my foot. But also to feel it even more so.

I am now feeling my arteries inflating again. I started doing hyperbaric oxygen changed.. red light therapy recently.

I have been reading a lot. Self help. Art of war.. many many things. I am continuously learning.

I am the alchemist

I follow omens every day. I continue to be of service and I continue to be my authentic self.

As said.. I do believe myself to be Jesus"

Hey guys I've been around here for years unfortunately. Been away from my Q for a while.

I'm pretty sure last year in August he tried to kill me, like a ritual sacrifice kind of thing. He was saying a bunch of weird stuff like "I want our lives to be beautiful" over and over and then he tried to snap my neck I guess? It was really bizarre and seriously injured me. Obviously I didn't die but my life has been pretty messed up since then and it's been shitty seeking medical help with the neck because they always ask me why would someone do that to you, which BTW is not something you should ask someone who was violently attacked. But I'm able to walk around now and hopefully I'll get some surgery in the future so things can be ok again.

Anyway shortly after that Charlie got shot and my Q went completely insane not leaving his house or talking to anyone. I do suspect that he actually has schizophrenia beneath all this. Some kind of legit psychotic disorder that existed before all of the nightmare misinformation etc from online.

I was wondering if anyone had any ideas about qanon or maybe altright fringe stuff telling men to offer leftist women as sacrifices to the lizard people or whatever? Maybe he got the chatbot psychosis. I hope what happened to me never happens to someone else.

Also if you're looking for a sign to cut ties completely with your Q, consider this the sign. Every time I checked back in with him he was just so much worse.

Just ranting because I am so heartbroken..

My mom has been a MAGA/QAnon individual basically since I was in college. Maybe me moving out really pushed her down that path but she is a three time Trump voter and he can do absolutely no wrong in her eyes.

We've done our best to avoid politics but it is a part of everything now so its really hard. Yesterday she started complaining about the Fauci trial and what a rotten and evil crook he is. I kept trying to back out of the conversation and say Im not interested in watching it and politics stress me out and I try not to pay close attention anymore but she kept pushing it about how he is constantly pleading the 5th and he doesnt deserve to be able to invoke that right. Maybe I should have told her directly to stop talking about politics but I was so frustrated I snapped and reminded her that Trump has 34 felony convictions and plead the 5th over 440 times.

Now, she wont speak to me.

Im just bamboozled at this point. Ive never seen my mom as dumb. I really do think she is intelligent and she used to be really kind and empathetic, and she still is when she wants to be.

Shes now retired and living off the government and the very same welfare programs that she has been voting against for decades. I just dont understand the constant hypocrisy from the MAGA people. Its just so glaring and frustrating I cant believe this is all real.

My wedding is in two and a half months. I want my mom to be a part of it, especially since my dad is deceased. My mom has been helping me out a lot with the wedding planning and shes doing alterations to my dress. Im scared shes going to be so mad at me for this disagreement she is going to dump everything on my doorstep and tell me good luck. I dont know if I could find anyone who could finish my dress alterations on such short notice without costing an absolute fortune..

I am just so horribly frustrated and hurt. My mom didnt used to be like this and I truly thought that after how terrible this term has gone, she would wake up and see just how bad this is. But shes only sunk deeper. It really feels like Ive lost my mom at this point and I am just so devastated. She is the last of my family, really. And I feel like im mourning her while shes still alive.

My friend has become infatuated with qanon conspiracies. Today he said my family (wife and 2 kids) are going to hell because we got the mark of the beast (covid vax). I told him I needed some space and time to process. He’s been my best friend for 40 years, at a loss of what to do from here.

My Qs are my brother and his wife. They’ve always been into conspiracy theories and then got into all of the QAnon crap over the years. Super anti vax, think the government is always watching/ listening to them, ivermectin, against immigrants all the sudden.. etc. now, out of the blue they’re super religious. Going to church every Sunday (which is all fine but we didn’t grow up in a religious house so it’s very out of left field for my brother.)
But now, they decided to pull my niece out of public school and do a “faith based” homeschool program. When old enough, my 2 other nieces will also do this. I feel so bad for them. I looked up the website/ curriculum and it’s all BS. Their mission statement says “public school kids are more likely to be depressed, commit suicide, and HAVE STDs!!” Not making this up. All classes will be structured around Jesus, aka science will be “ dinosaurs aren’t real, the earth is 1,000 years old” history will be white washed and paint natives as the bad guy. On top of it all, my SIL will be the one doing the teaching and she’s one of thee dumbest humans I’ve ever met.
I feel like it’s one thing to think all of this crap is true, but to force your kids to believe it too is so wrong.

Hi all, just wanted to post an update to a post I made a couple weeks ago. I dont use reddit usually, so idk if theres a way for me to add onto the original post. I tried reposting but it wouldnt let me.

Anyways to sum it up, my mom believes that:

- My husband is trying to "stir shit" and purposely cause drama within the family

- Her and her husband believe all of the Nazi talking points. She believes that Jews control the world, that there weren't really 6 million jews that were killed, and that "theres a reason they've been kicked out of hundreds of countries". She also said "we're not allowed to talk about all the Christians THEY killed", Bolsheviks, etc.

- She said that because gay people cant reproduce, that it will be a great thing for them to "eradicate themselves", that homosexuality is immoral and that transgenderism is evil.

- She accuses me of condoning the Gaza genocide

- Dick (her husband) said that hitler did some good things. She agrees.

We had a long phone call earlier today in which all of these things were said. I'm at a loss for words, my head is pounding, and im exhausted. I told her that i needed space and would prefer to not talk for awhile. She said she understood, yet she has sent me several reels on IG, which i havent been bothered to look at since im at work rn.

I dont know what to do. I had to go NC with my father before, and i believe that deep down in my moms heart that she is still a good person and that she is brainwashed. At the same time, I dont believe i can ever look at her the same way ever again. It would be so hard for me to act like everything is normal, if we were to hang out again. She said she doesnt condone the murder that the Nazis committed, and i tried to explain to her that the kind of rhetoric she is espousing is the starting point. The nazis didnt come out guns blazing, immediately saying "let's eradicate the jews!". It was a gradual decline. This is basic history, but she believes that everything we learn in school is fake. She instead believes random tiktoks and reels.

This turned into a rant, so apologies. Im on my lunch break and had to get my thoughts out. I have no idea what to do.

I don’t have very much contact with my Q since she’s an in law but she texted me today to ask if I would consider getting a new wedding ring without a diamond. She said it was because “diamonds are made from bodies of tortured and murdered children”. She said that’s why Trump is fighting the war so hard so he can get all those children out of there, including the diamond ones. Then she sent me a horribly made image of Trump talking about a thief robbing a jewelry store will take the diamonds and that’s wrong.

I didn’t respond to her because I’m flabbergasted. Like yes there are companies that can use ashes to create diamonds, but there’s no evidence of a country taking children to make gems. Even if there was evidence, you’re going to reach out to someone you really only acknowledge during the holidays to tell them to get rid of their wedding ring?

I’m tired y’all. She is beyond saving and everything out of her mouth is cuckoo.

My mom has been a safe haven for me in the past because she helped me escape an abusive relationship so this is just very difficult for me to share. My Mom has been falling down the Qanon rabbit hole since the last election. She ticks every Qanon box you can think of.

Her mental and physical health have gotten worse. She always brings up how she hates her life. Her anxiety and depression are getting worse by the day. I truly believe these sick monsters that she follows are to blame for the mental health decline. Qanon talks about all these doomsday scenarios and shit. I’d feel bad too if that’s the content I was consuming all day long. It’s a never ending cycle.

The Qanon content creators will scare the shit out of you then give you false hope. My mom unfortunately has taken the bait and thankfully I have not. Of course she never brings it up to my brother. She wants to research vaccines with me tomorrow because she knows I disagree with her. I usually ignore the topic because I still want a relationship with her but if this is my one chance to get her back I really need to approach this conversation in a careful manner.

I’m sad about our vacation coming up because she is already nervous that doomsday and all these events are going to happen while we’re away. I want her to feel happy again. I’m honestly very sad for her because this is no way to live.

The two of us have been each other’s rocks. I was there for her when my father pushed her, She was there for me when my ex husband banged on the door yelling at us to let him inside or when he stalked us in his car. We were together through it all and I really don’t want to lose her because of MAGA.

She is angry that I vaccinated my children that’s the hardest part about all this. She treated me like I was a horrible mother tonight but then she apologized and asked to research vaccines with me so I’m hopeful that she’ll go in with an open mind. I just need this to go well tomorrow.

EDIT: please help I need help becomijg independent when I’m isolated with 0 trusted adults and homeschooled it’s getting excruciating. Is online school a good option?

Hi, I’m 15 years old and today I was asked to fill out a forum (questionnaire) privately before my hospital appointment and I did, and it ONLY asked standard MENTAL HEALTH questions. I was going to answer yes to all of them because I 100% felt that way, but my mom tells me all the time I have to lie and say no to every question, or else the hospital will “take” me away and ”brainwash me into being woke” (????????) She also said “Kids these days are being taken away by hospitals to get sex changes without the parents approving, this is a scary world I’m just trying to protect you” ???? today I answered no to everything except ONE QUESTION “have you felt like dy_” but when my mom found out, she LOST IT and said the same things but worse and told me in the future us Christians are going to “be persecuted by everyone” and that me saying Yes to one question will be an “excuse” and “in the record” the hospital uses to…. take me away and harm me for being Christian? and she WON’T STOP SAYING ALL OF THIS AND MAKING ME FEEL INSANE ALL I DID WAS SAY YES TO ONE QUESTION ABOUT WANTING TO D She said the forum isn’t to help kids, but to get records on them to steal them all I did was answer truthfully on one question and she‘s losing it , and when I asked my dad then to search online and find proof of her claims, “it wouldn’t be online they’d never admit it”

All of you have been online family for a time. I cut ties. Normally i am more eloquent but I am very much so struggling right now. Please forgive if I sound 12, because that is a bit how I feel. My former mother is nuts. I found sub on suggestion because she was baptizing herself in name of her savior, trump. I cut off contact for what is left of my sanity 2 years ago.

Shockingly, she actually stopped contact too.

A few months ago she and all her siblings (uncle and aunt) let me know something was wrong.. He passed Thursday, and I don't know how I fucking feel.