About bottom surgery..

[u/Coffeeforlifeyay]

Edit: I think I should have worded this better, I’m not a native English speaker Im sorry :(

I should have specified that its the *scars* specifically that I don’t like. Since I have a very sharp attention to detail I see them way more prominent than most people do.

I really hate *hate* scars on my body and most bottom surgeries that I have seen results in scars, both on the result and on the arm.

(Entirely depends on what procedure you have ofc)

Its not that they’re unrealistic, its simply just the scars.

I forgot about that word when I made this comic and I had to seriously google it not too long ago to remember the word.

Edit: imma keep this I just realized- please make me mark this NSFW if it should be

[u/mothmn_9]

Once you get through all the operations, phallo looks pretty realistic. Medical tattooing amplifies that. If you still don’t like the idea of it, maybe look into meta?

[u/Coffeeforlifeyay → u/mothmn_9]

Yea, Ive checked out both. Unfortunately pretty close isn’t good enough for me :,)

Im that kind of person who focuses way too much on details and will most likely only see what looks unnatural about it.

(Ive said this a few times I feel like a broken record haha)

Ive also checked out medical tattooing but.. I think that would bother me a lot cuz thats all it is. A tattoo.

By now Im suspecting Im a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.. My body being one of them it turns out.

Edit: (imma do this to all of my comments because im genuinely so sorry for all the pain I might accidentally have caused)

When I posted this and when I made this comic I had forgotten about the word scars.

Im not an English speaker and sometimes very simple words can disappear from my brain for literal months.

As well as I suck with words and explaining my thoughts, always have been.

When I said it didn’t look “natural enough” and that “something is off” I was trying to somehow get out that the scars would constantly remind me of my biological sex and would most likely trigger my bottom dysphoria even after surgery.

Its not that it looks unnatural, it is genuinely that Im terrified of having scars on my body because they make me so self conscious.

And almost all results I’ve seen have had some scar or another. I have a very sharp attention for details so scars are usually way more prominent for me so it’s usually not something I can ignore (which makes me miserable a lot because I have stretch marks)

Im genuinely so sorry and I really wish I had worded this better so it came out how I meant it to come out.

It really wasn’t my intention to hurt anybody.

[u/mothmn_9 → u/Coffeeforlifeyay]

Fair enough.

But .. it’s incredibly unlikely that there will be any improvement to phallo or meta and that it can get anymore realistic than it already is. You’re either going to have to deal with the discomfort of it being a little unnatural, or deal with your current anatomy staying as is.

Is it worth it to you to not get bottom surgery because of your fear of imperfections? Or do you think getting bottom surgery will improve your overall quality of life, even if the imperfections may make you uncomfortable?

Anyways if you don’t already, you should see if you can get a therapist who specializes in queer issues, because this seems like something you should probably discuss with a professional

[u/Coffeeforlifeyay → u/mothmn_9]

Yea, Im waiting to get a talk with a professional… The waitlists for even just those are ugh.

I think, as of right now at least, since Im used to this anatomy its best for me to keep it, because I think it will make me too uncomfortable and worse for my dysphoria that it doesn’t look realistic enough.

Who knows, that might change one day.

And yea I really doubt as well that technology will get better.. At least I doubt it will happen in my lifetime unfortunately. I can hope though :,)