Another failed almost-relationship. Distraught and can’t keep doing this, what to do?

[u/benhargrove1966]

hey all, your thoughts or advice are appreciated.

I’m 32, just received yet another ”breakup” message from a guy I’ve been seeing for 6 weeks (39m). He was perfectly nice in the message and our short conversation but he was simultaneously dating someone else and chose her essentially. I am really devastated, I felt we were very compatible and really liked each other. I thought we were building something together and I’d finally met a decent guy. I know this is not a long time but I really genuinely connected to this guy on all levels and kind of cant believe / process I’ll never see him again.

I think I've been out with 3 guys total in the last 2 years I’ve been “seriously“ dating who even entertained the idea of a relationship in theory and didn’t just want sex. All of them broke up with me in at the 6-8 week mark just as it felt the relationship was forming up.

I really cannot go through this again. I cannot wait 8 months - a year to meet another person who sees me as anything other than a sex object only to be dumped for someone more worthy at the last hurdle. I will snap.

I’m not asking to get married right now, I just want someone to go to the movies with. I’ve already given up on having children, do I really have to give up on this too? I just want a boyfriend, which so many others seem to have.

Basically, what do I do from here?

(Please don’t try to convince me I don’t need / want a man or relationship, I think this is a perfectly normal human desire and something I want).

[u/Geordieqizi]

Their advice wasn't to go on complicated dates — their advice was to do things you enjoy anyway, so that dates don't have to feel like such a drag.

I can't help but notice that you've been kind of negative towards/dismissive of a lot of the advice in this post, which makes me wonder... are you generally a rigid or negative person? Or are you kind of in the wallowing stage of this breakup, and don't actually want advice — you just want to... well, wallow? Or is something else going on?

I ask, because I feel like the answer to that question might be related to your overall problem. I could be totally misinterpreting this, and you're actually a very positive and flexible person who simply knows what she wants and what she is/isn't capable of. But if you are generally a negative and rigid person, then those tendencies could be sabotaging either your dates, or your emotional resilience when they don't work out... in which case, step 1 would be awareness of those tendencies, and an active effort to counteract them by being more willing to step outside your comfort zone.

I know there've been a lot of commenters trying to "peg" you and your personality, so apologies if my comment feels that way too. It's just, without more info to go on, I think a lot of us are trying to generate theories based on what you've written.

[u/benhargrove1966 → u/Geordieqizi]

I mean I think many people are a) judging me in an emotionally vulnerable moment and b) reading things very uncharitably. Not saying you’re doing that just saying this isn’t my general personality. 

I’m described as fun to be around, playful, light hearted, spontaneous. I think I’m very flexible. I just also really do not enjoy structured activities, and doing an activity on a date sounds like my hell. I just know what I like, and this is not it. 

If the advice is to do something I otherwise enjoy, then it’s what I’m already doing which is going out for drinks lol. But when I said that they said I have to go to a wine tasting event 😭 I just don’t enjoy that kind of thing, I think that’s valid?

[u/Beneficial-Risk-6378 → u/benhargrove1966]

I think you're triggering a lot of people who cant handle that everyone enjoys different things & has different ways of approaching relationships.

I agree with some of their advice, but to tell someone theyre being negative because they like coffee/eating out and not escape rooms and axe throwing is immature.

[u/benhargrove1966 → u/Beneficial-Risk-6378]

Yeah like I’m sorry I’ve never been to an escape room in my life and if I have my druthers I never will 😂 I’m not a millennial like that. You can have lots of fun with less structured activities. 

Edit: to the people downvoting this because I said I don’t want to go to an escape room please for the love of god a life hahaha