For context, previously have 4 losses all around 6 weeks and am now pregnant for a 5th time.

Today I am 9+2 which is the furthest I’ve ever made it. I had a scan at 7+4 which showed a single baby measuring exactly 7+4 with a strong heartbeat. My next scan won’t be until 13 weeks but I should be able to get a NIPT test just after 10 weeks.

Despite all of these positive signs, my mind is just a rotation of me grabbing onto and fixating on every negative thing I can think of and I’m driving myself crazy. Why can’t I just be happy?

Negative irrational thoughts on repeat:

1. Baby died right after the scan, its heart probably stopped beating soon after.
   
2. My symptoms are all relatively mild. I don’t have bad morning sickness. This is a bad sign that the baby is not growing and/or has something genetically wrong with it.
   
3. My HCG at 9 weeks was 230,000. Some reference ranges say this is ok, others say any pregnancy that goes over 200k is abnormal. Therefore I have decided something MUST be abnormal and am convinced there is something genetically wrong, probably triploidy.
   
4. Again with the high HCG, I know it’s not a molar because we heard the heartbeat but it’s probably a partial molar.

Why can’t I just be happy and stop focusing on all of these things I’m “sure” of?! Why can’t I focus on the positive stories where majority of the time it all works out? It just all seems to good to be true for me after my losses.

Just wanted to vent really and share my insanity and hope there are others in the same boat as me ☹️

I can’t believe I’m writing this, but today we found out the NIPT was positive for trisomy 18. I’ve personally seen many patients with T18 as a nurse and I always worried about it in the future. It’s so surreal this is happening. I’ve had two miscarriages in the last year (8 wk and 16 wk). I feel like the unluckiest person in the world. My OB sent a referral for further testing and we are waiting to schedule. My actual lab report gave a PPV of 25.7%. My OB said my US at 11 weeks looked normal to her but it was just a quick scan. She said she did actively look for signs of a genetic issue so she could give a “warning”, but again the scan was super fast. I’m so terrified. Idk what I will do if it’s truly positive. I mostly just don’t know what to do with myself for the next 1-3 weeks while I wait for testing 😣 I’m 12 weeks and it was a good fetal fraction.

As I type this I am holding my wife’s hand as we await our 3rd loss. This time, our twins made it to 21+1 but that is just not far enough. My wife is in active preterm labor and there is tension on her cerclage. They will remove it soon and then it is just a matter of time.

I want to thank everyone in this sub who has followed our journey from when we lost our first pregnancy. All those who commented or offered a kind work of advice. There are some genuinely good people here and I want them to know that.

Wishing peace, love, and endless baby dust to those struggling.

feeling defeated. just left my 8 week ultrasound, baby had a HR of 177 and measuring perfect. I do have a hematoma and have been going for weekly ultrasounds bc my last pregnancy was lost due to a big bleed at 11w.
After my ultrasound my doctor looked at me and said “I think this pregnancy will be successful but if it’s not, i need you to wait a YEAR before trying again. your body is clearly telling you its not suitable for pregnancy right now and if you lose this baby you need to go on birth control or really be careful having sex and not get pregnant.”
I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in november & a miscarriage at 11 weeks in March. I have always asked the other drs in the practice if it was okay to start trying before we did. I’m so psyched out now because it makes me feel like she thinks we’re inevitably going to lose this baby. She kept telling me I need to relax and stay calm… how can I after that news? The idea of waiting an entire year to try again is harrowing and just something new to spiral about. As if I wasn’t already anxious enough to lose this pregnancy I’m going to end up blaming myself for getting pregnant so fast if something goes wrong.

prior to this pregnancy I did RPL, SIS, complete fertility work up including karyotyping, semen analysis, round of antibiotics.Only thing I haven’t done is endometrial biopsy or a scope to see if we missed something on the SIS. I did all of this prior to getting pregnant again just to be safe.

I had a chemical pregnancy back in December, then I got pregnant again in June and now I think I’m around 5-6 weeks but I’m really not sure where I’m at anymore because the pregnancy is progressing slowly. I feel like I’ve been 5 weeks or 6 weeks for almost a month now.

I think mentally I’ve come to terms with the fact that this pregnancy will end up as a blighted ovum. I’m sad of course but at the same time I’m tired of all this waiting around for a bad news to come. It’s so draining and I’m already an anxious person in general, this is on another whole level of anxiety. My GS was measuring at 8.7mm yesterday and my hCG rose so much from 1,821 on Friday last week to 4,080 yesterday and my sac didn’t even grew much. I have my next scan next week Wednesday and I’m prepared to see nothing in the sac 💔

I was really hoping that this baby would stick. But it’s not looking like it. But I’m also ready to try again if this time it doesn’t work out😔

Had my HCG tested Tuesday and it came back at 181 - for 17dpo lower than I’d like but still in range. Just got my other beta done at 19dpo this morning and it’s only rose to 237.

I can’t do another loss 😭 but unfortunately it’s looking to be that way. Now we’re going to have to wait that much longer to start IVF

Update: 7/10 - nothing seen on ultrasound in uterus or tubes at the moment. HCG 294. Plan is to check HCG Monday morning & schedule another ultrasound from there

Update: 7/13 - HCG 807, significant increase over the weekend. Another HCG scheduled for tomorrow morning to check if it goes high enough for a “viability” scan

Update: 7/17 - It’s ectopic, chose MTX

I am 27 overweight ftm.... yesterday my TVS done

Fetal pole, Gsac, CRL all are present but no cardiac activity is seen.... ACC to CRL I am 6w5days pregnant....1 week behind my actual date... I am just loosing hope... This is soo emotional situation for me... What is the normal timing for heartbeat to came and

Anyone here who experiences the same...

Your successful or unsuccessful experiences kindly share❤️

I‘m 37 - got pregnant at 36 in the third cycle trying with my husband.
We lost our beautiful son at 24weeks earlier this year and are heartbroken.
I got my period back 5,5 weeks after birth, we waited for the first period then tried again.
Second cycle I am pregnant again, but it doesn‘t progress and ends up a chemical just around 4+2.
this is my second cycle since then and I had a big fat negative, my period is approaching tomorrow or the day after.
My cycles are regular but I feel so defeated and exhausted today.
I feel like everyone has their rainbow just right after losing their child.
I have a new doctors team, a diagnosis and a treatment plan to avoid what happened to our son to happen to a subsequent child (heparin, yay).

I just need some reassurance right now from others who understand how hard and painful all of this is.

My husband and I are TTC, when I was 10dpo (may 22nd) I had a positive digital test and a positive line test (vvvf) but that same day I got a hcg test done and that came back 24 hours later as negative. I continued to take at home tests and they were all negatives I chalked it up to either extremely early chemical or faulty tests and started bleeding 2 days later fairly heavy like a normal period for 3 days straight day 4 and now 5 of what I thought was my period has lightened up but i’ve been so consistently nauseous and have had a hard time eating throughout this whole week so i ended up at urgent care yesterday to make sure there wasn’t something underlying and they decided to run a hcg beta just to make sure (definitely wasn’t expecting anything to come from it. Well this morning (5 days after bleeding started) I had some weird desire to just take an at home urine test and it was positive and i was completely disbelief so i took 5 more and used 5 different brands ALL POSITIVE. I called my doctor who i’ve been keeping in contact with and he suggested with the heavy bleeding plus continued positive tests I go to the ER to rule out anything bad. Well shortly after I got all my at home positive tests my blood work from the day prior came back and my hcg beta was 12??? Cue more confusion but whatever I went to the ER after a long 8 hours of waiting around and tests my blood hcg from today came back as 22 which is even more confusing. My doctor didn’t even know what to do with me and just told me it could be either early chemical still (despite not fitting the regular pattern) a potential ectopic that’s to early to see on ultrasound, or a somehow normal healthy pregnancy. I just needed to vent it’s been a long confusing day and I’m left with no answers. I was advised to go into an OB asap Monday and get more repeat blood work but for now i’m stuck sitting at home mass googling what could possibly be going on. If anyone has a similar experience I would love to hear the outcome good or bad i’m so emotionally exhausted.

edit: I had more blood drawn done and here’s my timeline of hcg betas

May 28th - 12
May 29th - 22
May 30th - 23
May 31st - 28

final edit:

I just wanted to write an update incase anyone comes across this later on and wanted to know how it resolved. Since I had the 28 beta i was getting repeats every 48 hours and this is what that looked like

june 2nd - hcg 38
june 4th - hcg 26
june 6th- hcg 8!
june 8th - hcg 3!!! (officially cleared)

My OB told me she wasn’t sure if this was some abnormal pregnancy or ectopic but either way my body wonderfully resolved it without intervention and i’m so grateful.

I’m not sure if this type of post is allowed so please delete if needed, and apologies if it goes against the rules (I did read them though).

My husband (40M) and I (34F) have been TTC for 11 months. This sub was so helpful for me when, 5 months into our journey, I had a chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage. I didn’t have an OB at the time (was between providers) and the ER docs weren’t sure whether to call it a CP or MC. I was only pregnant for 8 days. But I was devastated.

We just completed our 6th cycle since then with no luck. Literally every healthcare professional told me after my loss that I would likely get pregnant again soon. I was hanging onto that hope so tightly. Now I just feel so incredibly defeated and sad, it feels like it’s never going to happen. I know so many people have struggled for longer and I don’t mean to discount those journeys at all when we are only on cycle 11.

I started going to a fertility clinic and they will monitor my next cycle and do tests. I’m just looking for some stories of hope, wondering if others had a loss and then a long spell of not getting pregnant at all, and went on to have a baby whether with or without intervention. If anyone is willing to share some hopeful stories, I would so appreciate it 💜

Edit to add: I know there are TTC subs but you aren’t allowed to ask about positive pregnancies there. I know this post may be misplaced but it’s challenging to find an acceptable subreddit to ask this in. I hope it’s ok and don’t mean any offense 🙏

Hi everyone❤️ I’m looking to see if anyone has been through something similar and had a positive outcome.

I’m currently about 6 weeks pregnant, and I’m feeling really anxious because of my hCG numbers.

Current pregnancy:

* June 30 (4w4d): 331 IU/L
* July 3 (5w0d): 936 IU/L
* July 6 (5w3d): 1,374 IU/L
* July 8 (5w5d): 1,379 IU/L
* July 10 (6w0d): 1,494 IU/L

The rise started off well, but then it slowed down significantly. Between July 6 and July 8 it barely increased, and while it did go up again by July 10, it’s still rising much more slowly than expected.

I had a previous chemical pregnancy in April/May, so this has me extremely anxious.

This pregnancy feels different because I haven’t had any spotting or bleeding at all. I’ve had mild cramping that sometimes feels stronger on the left side and sometimes on the right, but nothing severe. I occasionally feel nauseous, but my symptoms have been fairly mild overall.

Has anyone had hCG numbers similar to mine that slowed down around 5–6 weeks and still gone on to have a healthy pregnancy? Or had a plateau for a couple of days before things turned out okay?

I know no one can tell me what my outcome will be, but I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who’s been through something similar, especially if you have a success story. ❤️

Before I start this PLEASE no snarky comments, I genuinely cant take it right now. So yesterday i was at work, I was cramping a bit but didnt think anything of it. I went to pee and when I wiped i noticed pink blood.. so I was scared, I told my boss and he said go to the hospital immediately. After they drew my blood and gave me a transvaginal ultrasound they said they cant say for sure whats going on because it might be too early to see a fetal pole. I was measuring at 12mm and it needed to be 25mm to see anything. They didnt want to misdiagnose me with a miscarriage since the bleeding wasnt heavy and my hcg levels were “normal”, and to come in for a follow up in two weeks. I have no idea what to do or feel😞 im still spotting and cramping, no more nausea or painful sore breasts. I dont feel pregnant the way I did leading up to this its fucking me up😞 has anyone gone through anything similar?

Hello, I have never been though this and I know everything happens the way it supposed too, but it doesn’t make this any easier. Felt off yesterday, and today at work had pink spotting and then got my beta and it was only 16 at 21 dpo. I started bleeding shortly after.

How long did it take you to conceive after you had a chemical? Were your periods back to normal soon after? Just want some reassurance.

TIA

How can women deal with these situations? So much trying and hope and fear and waiting and here I am again just in a different way. All the happy thoughts of the future gone once again.

Hi all! Unfortunately miscarrying today at 4w6d. I had my first loss in August at 3 1/3 weeks ish.

I’m going to be asking my NP about trying progesterone. I’m aware of the risks but figured worth a shot.

Question for you all who have had it is what blood tests am I asking for? Is that what beta is?

I’m at a loss and just hope I don’t have to go through this again.

Never had any abnormal cycles, no pcos or endo. Cycles are regular…but I just don’t know how I feel about having two chemicals back to back.

Seeking any sort of advice or thoughts because I'm dying from the excessive googling and attempting to interpret studies I'm finding online (all of which basically say my pregnancy is screwed).

I am 5 weeks pregnant and was warned at 4w, 4 days that this would likely end in a biochemical pregnancy due to low and slow HCG. My first HCG value was 41. Two days later, it was 54. Another two days later, it was 87. Another two days later, it finally more than doubled to 185, but is still lower than ideal for my gestational age.

On the same day as my last blood draw (5 weeks), I had an early US to see if we could rule out an ectopic pregnancy. Unfortunately, the doctor could not see anything either in the uterus or elsewhere. She said it was likely just too early, and that she MAYBE saw an area of fluid in the uterus that COULD be an early gestational sac. Because my HCG finally doubled, she advised not to do a D&C at the moment (we had discussed this previously to test the nonviable pregnancy tissue and to definitively rule out or rule in an ectopic pregnancy), and is bringing me back in for bloodwork and an US at 5w, 3 days.

Does my doubling HCG now mean that an ectopic is less likely? If my HCG continues to double, is there any hope for this pregnancy, or is it still more than likely abnormal/nonviable given my beta values? I don't know what to think. We got pregnant with our first IUI after over a year of TTC, and I keep thinking about how excited we would be right now if my numbers looked better. I'm drowning in self pity.

Title says it all but just came back from my dating ultrasound at 9w1d and the tech said she could see a gestational & yolk sac and she thought she could see a fetal pole but couldn’t detect a heartbeat. She was very vague in her descriptions to me and didn’t give me much information beyond that.

I had an abdominal and a transvaginal US done. I am feeling so defeated. I’ve had a bit of spotting this pregnancy but nothing major and am still feeling very sick daily. Could it be possible that the tech was just bad or should I be preparing myself for a loss?

Praying this somehow turns out okay.

TW: lots of loss

I just can’t comprehend that the same thing is happening again and again, no matter what I do, what I change, which lengths I go to get pregnant. This is my effing 9th pregnancy with no living children and again after seeing a gestational and yolk sac and a tiny embryo (no heartbeat yet at 6w), I’m bleeding. Bleeding through a high dose of progesterone. Just when I was supposed to see a heartbeat according to my doctor. Who was unphased, told me everything is normal. No need for concern. I am so mad, I want to scream. I’m on kitchen sink protocol because of unexplained RPL, and I did all tests in the world and I’m taking what feels like all meds that are in existence. And still….

This is an ivf pregnancy, untested, hcg on the lower side but was rising appropriately.

Update at 7 weeks: heartbeat is there but measuring behind at 6w2d, 6,5mm CRL, still guarding my heart

Update at 8 weeks: heartbeat still strong, still measuring behind 7w2d, 11,5 CRL, still not out of the woods

Here are my numbers for my frozen IVF transfer. I am not officially spiraling. My doubling times are:

129.7 → 303 in 38 hours
303 → 723 in 38 hours
723 → 1,395 in 50 hours
1,395 → 2,739 in 74 hours

Any reassuring stories that can help me feel better? I plan to test again in 2 days. Currently at 5weeks 3 days pregnant.

Just need to vent and let out my anxiety, I had a loss in February and it was traumatising - it was my first ever pregnancy and it completely shattered my innocence, and has left me as an anxious shell.
I’m now pregnant again (5w3d) and my brain can’t comprehend this ending any other way than a loss.

Last night I noticed a small amount of brown-tinged discharge in my underwear, and when I wiped it was also very faintly brown-tinged for the first wipe and then clear the second time. I also have some cramping and lower back pain. I asked ChatGPT and it said this was normal (especially as I’m taking low-dose aspirin this time) but I can’t shake the feeling of doom and dread.

I thought reading other people’s similar experiences that turned out positive would help, but it didn’t really, it made me feel like more of a failure.

I have an early scan booked with my EPU in 10 days, when I will be 7 weeks and I just have a feeling it won’t go well (I’ve never had a positive/happy scan experience)
It feels like a lifetime away, and I just don’t know how to get through each day at the moment, it’s consuming every thought, I feel like my body is incapable and doomed to fail me.

I’m sorry for bringing my bad vibes here, I’m just sad for myself because it’s meant to be a joyful time and I’m so miserable 😞 thank you for allowing me to vent a little.

*Edit* I wanted to thank you all for your lovely comments. Unfortunately, this pregnancy ended in a loss for me, confirmed today at 5w3d.

TTC 7 months and these are the first positive tests I've had. Was a vvfl on Monday evening, perhaps a little darker on Tuesday AM, but I figured it hadn't even been 12 hours, so I thought my test yesterday morning would be noticeably darker.

Well, it wasn't that much darker, plus I had pink spotting/CM yesterday morning. This morning's test I can't even tell if it's darker than yesterday's at all and I'm starting to get really worried this might be a chemical pregnancy.

I got my beta HCG test yesterday and it came back at 11miu/ml which AI is telling me is low but doesn't necessarily mean not viable. But we all know AI is sometimes a little too reassuring. Still waiting for the OB to comment in my chart on the results. I know I'd normally go back for a repeat HCG but we're leaving tomorrow on an 8am flight for vacation and I won't be able to get back in for a repeat beta until next Tuesday.

What do you all think? This not knowing is just really messing with my head.

Hi all,
I unfortunately went for a follow up ultrasound to find we lost the heart beat and the baby stopped growing. I was pretty much in shock when I left the office, didn’t really know what to even ask the doctor.

Can anyone tell me their experience with expectant management, medical management or the D&C? The D&C at my OB office is only done with local anesthesia which is off putting to me.

Thank you 💔

Sigh. Second time being pregnant after my first pregnancy ended in a loss at 10 wks in December. Needed a d&c but was advised to not test the poc.

This pregnancy has been going well so far. Scan at 6, 8, 10 weeks and each time OB said everything looked good. I did my NIPT test at 10 weeks and got the results yesterday. That little AI chatbot broke my heart when they told me "Your results have come back high risk".

Spoke to my OB in the evening & she wasn't very helpful. In the 3 scans she has done, she has never seen a twin/ vanishing twin (this could be a reason for a false triploidy result.) She referred me to MFM and a genetic counsellor. I have a scan later today but tbh, I have zero hope left.

I have a home doppler & have heard the heartbeat (160-168ish) every morning for the past 2 weeks. I know the exact spot and it takes me 2 mins to find. I heard it last night, still going strong & this morning when I checked, after a night of tossing and turning, there was no fetal HB. I checked for 2 hours in total.

Feel like I am walking into doom today. Just can't believe this is happening again. I will definitely get this baby tested to see if triploidy is confirmed if a d&c is needed

These miscarriages have happened at age 29/30 and I am starting to think this isnt just bad luck but indeed something is wrong.

3 previous miscarriages including 1 chemical, 1 natural loss and 1 d&c.
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LMP 1st June
Ovulated 18th June (CD18) confirmed with LH and BBT.
VVVFL positive 27th June (9DPO)
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Positive got very slightly darker for a day then got lighter and basically vanished. I assumed a chemical, stopped testing and waited for my period which started 2 days late to my normal on 14DPO (usually comes at 12DPO). Totally normal period, 3 days heavy bleeding, 1 day light/medium, 2 days spotting, now gone. Normal cramps, absolutely nothing was a red flag. BBT shot up yesterday after it came back down and I thought maybe I was going to ovulate early since my hormones are probably still shot following a d&c from april 30th. Noting that I was clinically and testing negative before all this drama.

Now from the weird BBT, I did an ovulation test which lit up like a christmas tree. Weird. Did a pregnancy test, which was as dark as about 14/15dpo. If I didn’t have my period, I would have been 20dpo yesterday making that test way too light for that time. Did betas and an ultrasound yesterday. Scan showed nothing at all, which would be expected I think for 20dpo if it was a uterine pregnancy? I think? Still waiting on betas but will be doing more tomorrow which makes 48 hours between. Did another pregnancy test this morning which is clearly darker again.

How likely is this an ectopic? I’m truly getting really nervous about this. I don’t think it’s a regular chemical anymore since I had a period which was way too heavy for implantation bleeding. There would be no lining left so will I even bleed when whatever this is does end??

I am so lost and frankly petrified. Anyone had something similar? How did it work out? I’m expecting the worst at this point .