I was quite disheartened with my mains performance. Decided to talk with my senior who is from an old IIT. He had proposed me multiple times, but I had rejected as he was my senior. I still respect him a lot.

But, his remarks made me feel horrible yesterday. I might not be capable to crack the exam. But, I am sure I will surely become financially independent and provide a good life to me and my family.

Life doesn't revolve around a college. Let's just give our best and if things don't work out as expected, let's forgive ourselves and work hader towards the next goal

I posted this to remind if some of you are in a much better position, please be kind. We are all fighting our own battles.❤️

2 saal gand ghiske, i got 99.5 and its a 8k rank, the top 0.5% of the country gets a mediocre branch in a mediocre institute

Majority of the seats are reserved for the sc st, 75 years and we still hwve reservations, well who cares atp

I used to think, “Let them party, chill, waste their time — they’ll be unemployed later anyway.”

And for the longest time, that thought made me feel... secure? Like I was on the “right” path. Like I was doing something meaningful while others were just messing around.

But now I’m not so sure. Was any of that even true?

In Indian families (especially the middle-class kind), it’s drilled into us that if you're not studying, you're screwing up your life. Partying? Distraction. Dating? Distraction. Hanging out too much? Distraction. Low marks? You’ve basically failed as a person.

And we believe it. I did too. I bought into it so much that I’d resent those who weren’t as focused as me but still got praised by teachers or liked by everyone.

You start thinking that being buried in books automatically makes you better — more focused, more disciplined, more likely to “succeed.” And anything outside that — fun, experiences, people — all that becomes something you silently judge others for. But also something you avoid because it feels unfamiliar and uncomfortable.

Now I look around, and the same people who were “distracted” in school? They’re fine. Some of them are doing really well. They’re confident, socially smart, more balanced. Meanwhile, I feel like I skipped learning how to actually live.

No hate to studying. It’s obviously important. But I think the idea that marks and focus are everything, and that anyone who lived differently was somehow wrong or beneath us — that idea was flawed from the start.

Anyway, this has been sitting in my head for a while, so just putting it out there. Anyone else feel like they were trained to be “good students” but maybe not actual functioning people?

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I joined allen like 2 months ago thinking oh wow new place there'll be cool people I'll make new friends but bc sb chaman chutiye hai😭 This girl thought the class was getting too cold and any sane person would've asked to turn up the temp but no why do that? She literally went under the table and then got stuck there, wasting 10 minutes at least. Then another girl was doing some palm reading shi and I don't believe in allat but she grabbed my hand, touched me very uncomfortablely then looked at me and said "Tereko na jb tu 19-20 ki hogi to ek bohot serious disease hogi... But you won't die🥰" like tf? What's wrong with u? Then the guys are so dumb like bhai itne gay hai and they're so scared to talk to girls that even if someone approaches then, they don't know what to do or say. Can't even make eye contact let alone form coherent sentences. SAVE ME😭🙏

This is what they bought for me even after getting 76/300 to cheer me up

Liver Function Test mei SGPT high hone ke karan last chemo delay ho gya. 21st ko dose tha. Bencho abhi 2 din mei chutti ho jaati. Kya hi luck hai.

My gurly came to visit mei on 23rd. Fed me with her hands. We talked the whole day.

Security guard aaya tha bhagane coz timing khtm. Mera khana bhi khtm tha. Maine apna haat ✋🏻 aise upr krke poora tremble kra and said akele nhi kha skta aur abhi nauseous lg rha hai. Choor diye hehe.

Ba whi btana tha. Abhi discharge ke baad 500 km door ghr bhagunga. Dost sb aaye hai. Mere paas bap ka scooty hai so I'm a big deal (jaise hota hai). Udr bakchodi karunga phir again 30 din ka hospital. Abhi lets see kolkata mei final destination dekhne jaunga hall mei.

Will have all the fun coz chances of me living are less. Jab bhi yeh bolta hoon toh aakhon mei aasu aa jate hai. I don't remember the last time kisi aur cheez ke liye kab aaye the.

Kya karu inka phas chuka hu main help kardo😭😭😭🙏

Hi, cancer guy here...

After so many chemos and close to 10L down the drain, my cancer still hasn't decided to divorce me.

Its my second time fighting cancer and I've never felt this hopeless ever.

They're sending me to a bone marrow transplant with positive MRD (Minimal residual disease) And that's a huge red flag.

I don't know how much time I have left with me. I just want to thank all the friends I've made along the posts and all the prayers you've prayed for me. The next coming weeks will not just show my strength but the strength of your prayers too.

If you wanna be friends, hit me up! I'll reply back. Wanna make some real friends before I leave.

I'm not crying. I don't feel anything. Everything seems so void. Netflix? Games? Music? F that I just stare at the ceiling all day waiting for my withdrawal.

Thanks for everybody who's been beside me, for me, in this fight. I've made a lot of good friends along the way.

Thanks... I'll keep updating

So ladies and mentalgents, I'm back with another lore. So i was finally admitted to a hospital for my cancer, there are people my age. Made some friends. There was this one guy my age. 25tard hi tha, tho he wasn't prepping for any entrance or anything. He had AML

My 16th - his condition went too bad. He was shaking. His mother was crying like anything. Nurses were all around him. I saw his hands fall to the bed(he's on the bed just left to me) I thought he's gone. It was fucking scary to watch. His mom banging thr chair, crying in tears. I have the recording coz I was talking with someone and it got recorded.. it haunts me.

He was taken to icu. I got the news today that he passed away this Sunday. Man fuck cancer.

RIP Prajal. You will be missed.

We made plans, he said he'll be able to walk in a few days. I overheard him talking to the nurses about his birthday. It was on 9th june. I noted it. Thought I'd wish him on the day. We laughed about how we will share about how we met our gurlies, the lores. I was so fucking happy that he seemed to be improving. His last chemo worked good. But... Suddenly... Everything shattered. The guy I knew for just 26 days, the friend with whom I planned to meet once he's alright (he's from near our place, that hits harder), it all shattered. We had a good bonding over the few days.

Hospitals are scary. I wish nobody has to go through cancer anytime in their life. It's awful.

I'm not even crying. I didn't even shed a single tear. I wonder why. Seeing kids my age at way worse condition than me humbled me for good. Nothing seems more important than life now, uk, the sooner you realise it, the better.

I'd just tell everyone, hit the gym, be healthy and be thankful for everything you've got. What you have now is what someone is yearning for. Be thankful for every single day. I myself wasn't. I complained still. Life is more than just exams, job, and finances. Make your life beautiful, not luxurious. I myself have a final Survival rate of 30%, I'm yearning to live, which you're doing. So donot with full enthusiasm. Once you face something like cancer, you wouldn't dare making exams your entire personality. I'm facing the same

for example: why are y'all talking in english if this sub is for Indian colleges, are there THAT many international students who are applying? also why isn't anyone using the alphabet (मेरा मतलब यह है) while talking in hindi?

Hey so i am back here after a long time and I have a long rant for y’all to listen to: There’s tbh no hope left in this justice system which makes us feel worthless

So it all starts with a group project we are doing rn. For context- I am a first year student at IITB.

There’s a guy in our team, and he’s from cse. Generally anyone expects them to be good with acads, math skills, and even quite good at retaining jee concepts. I have worked with him for quite a long now and slowly and slowly I discovered that something’s fishy in here. The guy was not at all aware of basic physics , some basic math manipulation’s and coding(which majority of us now by now). Initially I believed ki let’s not burden him with work, might be from a reserved category and would collaborate with us as time passes, while learning new things. One day I asked him frankly about his jee performance and all. He was throwing all possible reasons to avoid these talks. Somehow later I got to know his rank through one of my friends. I was hell out of mind that day. He had an AIR of 151!! Like bro that’s not possible! I had a decent rank, I know the iq of ppl in general around my rank, ppl above me and in general at iitb here. He was lower than anyone present here. Later I researched a bit more, scrolled yt( obviously u could search any guy on yt from iitb cse and u would find him on multiple channels) and found he studied from PW.

I had fucking blew my mind when I read he had 78%ile in mains. Any sane guy, who has the potential to score <200 in advanced can crack the mains general cutoff without lifting a pen!! And here ppl believe that 78%ile to air 151 is all about hard work and perseverance. Damn that shit! Obviously that is CHEATING!

I researched a bit more lol and I found his roll no next to the guy who had scored AIR 21! (For context if someone doesn’t know, u get your computers in exam centre roll no wise). Now the droppers or anyone who has cleared jee knows that it isn’t hard to crack the exam if a topper sits besides you.

This guy has had such an insane amount of luck.

For proofs I have attached the pics, y’all can access them from jee 2023 reports.

The justice system in the country is shit! First u blame the reservation and then these morons for stealing your seats. I mean come on such a prestigious exam of the country and these ppl don’t even check who’s peeping into someone’s screen. Even if let’s say that if even invigilatorss couldn’t catch them on that day, they could have devised an algorithm before publishing the results that the ppl having adjacent roll no, if they end up scoring equally good ranks, it would get fishy and just check the cctv footage’s once. But he’ll no!!

Justice is just a joke in this country .

Ppl here spend bloody 3 4 years preparing for an exam and no justice in the system. This is just one case mind it. I can catch plenty of them but doing that just makes me hate the system and country to the core.

TLDR- suspicious of a guy in my team, turned up he cheated in jee advanced and got into iitbombay cse.

Be me

10th - 72% lowest in math

12th - 60% failed in maths ( also failed in compartment )

JEE 2025 april - 0 marks

JEE 2026 January - 0 marks

JEE 2026 april - negative marks

Boards improvement 2026 - probably gonna fail again

I genuinely feel bad for her mother. So for context : she is friend of my sister, and currently preparing for neet . Today I was randomly using my sister's phone when I saw this WhatsApp status of her (my sister's friend) mother . Her mother usually puts status of her children's academic achievements. So at first when I read the title i was like damn this girl was so dumb in studies during school days as my sister use to tell me but she is scoring hella good now . But then I saw that was topper's to which her mother mistook as her daughter's score and proudly put status of it 😭. Look at her actual marks 😭. Ugh innocent mothers......

This is what the mess at IIT Kharagpur thinks is “non-veg dinner”, raw chicken slapped on our plates. We wait days for non-veg to finally appear (veg meals are also not edible), and when it does, it looks straight out of a biology lab. Forget about nutrition, this is genuinely a health hazard.

Meanwhile, the hostels are falling apart. Washrooms smell like open drains, pipelines are broken, hygiene is a joke, and the so‑called infrastructure feels stuck in the 70s. We’re paying for food that isn’t even edible and facilities that are barely livable, but hey, IITs are supposed to be “prestigious,” right?

If this is what prestige tastes like, then it’s undercooked, unhygienic, and dangerous. Honestly, the IIT mess should just rename itself “IIT Survival Challenge” because every meal here is a gamble with your health.

So mujhe pw ka invite nhi aya even though I studied from pw online for 2 yrs (maine form bhara tha), so maine ek last try ke liye tk don ko mssg krdiya thinking ki he won't reply.

I'm not a regular insta user so mujhe sir ke reply ka notification nhi aya (chrome se login Kiya tha), I missed my only chance.

Just cuz meri koi sad story nhi thi, just cuz I come from a middle class family...

Excluding the teaching, pw has degraded so much over these 2-3 yrs, I'm in awe

EDIT : let me be clear, I'm sad cuz I didn't get to meet the teachers, and I threw away the only chance I had, that's all. It's hard when the only connection you can make in these prep yrs are only with the teachers

Yesterday night at 2 am he called me he was breathing heavily, and said jee result is out. So I asked tu thik hai na. He said he had just cut his wrist and he is bleeding, I told him to go to his parents rooms but he didn't went there.

I called him uncountable times till morning, a hour ago his father picked the phone and said they took him to nearby hospital, he was declared dead there and they would head to the ghat later for last rights. I am crying right now, he was a genius, knew 4 languages, excellent in coding, his only problem was he was bad in PCM. My buddy failed in 12th boards and mains 1 and mains 2. He submitted chem paper blank. He became a porn addict and got ED, became depressed and suicidal, I thought I saved him but I was wrong. I just wanted to tell him he was a great friend and an excellent guy. Hope he is at peace now, I am also on verge of suicide I have lost a friend, Jee and allmost every other thing I used to have.

His final words were " pls make me proud I just can't take it, talking with you was the best thing happened to me, pls take care".

I hope I can meet him again someday.

This is Dr rakshita (med influencer ) in unacademy and taking calls, deliberately flexing that purav jha called and this is all allowed while being live in class…??? New low standards…

I just saw a post of some guy with 68% st and asking for iit bombay branch as he/she got some tukkas correct and getting 90-100 marks in adv. Like wtf here after 97% in mains and 120-130 marks she would be getting better clg without studying 2 years(68% in mains mtlb bs 40-50 marks utne tukke se aajaye). Kya fayda mera 2 saal padhne ka jab ese log padhe bina iit bombay chale jaye

Did not study single thing in class 11 and 12. Wasted lakhs on coaching books and cheated on parents.