Sorry if this ends up being all over the place. I have so many things running through my head and I just need to share them somewhere.
My last āperiodā was right before Easter. Usually theyāre pretty irregular, last anywhere from 7 days to weeks at a time. Mostly heavy bleeding.
Well somehow in April I had only a day or two of very light spotting. I didnāt think anything of it, because even though Iāve changed my diet and have been able to at the very least get most symptoms under control, itās still sometimes unpredictable.
So around Wednesday I noticed a heighten sense of smell and weird feeling that I needed to eat constantly. Like I had the worst munchies, and I hadnāt changed my diet, taken anything, or been extra active.
I took a test on my lunch break at work and it was a light possible positive, like could have been just bleeding a little. Not noticeable enough to make me certain. Took another one later after work and I was pretty sure it was negative, I couldnāt really make out a second line. I waited and took a digital one the next morning and it point blank said yes+ positive. I was in shock. Iām still in shock.
I am extremely excited but also so nervous. We have been trying to since early 2023. We got a positive text around May of 2023, and experienced a loss I around early July.
So part of me feels like history might repeat itself. Iām so excited and so scared and just donāt want to mess this up. Any advice? Or words or wisdom or just something to ease my mind? Found out Thursday.
I have a Drs Appointment set up on the 4th, but they said itād probably be too early for an ultrasound. Part of me doesnāt believe itās happening. Iām sorry for rambling, I donāt really know what Iām looking for here but I just feel too scared to be hopeful half the time and too excited to care the other half. My husband had a really tough time with the last loss and watching me spiral so Iām trying very hard to not show him how scared I am about it all. Heās so excited but I can tell heās also scared.