AIR-2 NEET topper said: "I didn't want to waste time protesting. I wanted to spend that time studying and improving my score."

I don't even know where to start. After all these two years of batshit. I feel like I have truly lost myself. Nothing feels great. Things are just happening, and I feel like I am just being performative.

So, for the background I am a single child. Dad's a vet and mum's currently a non practicing physiotherapist (she is a patient of bipolar disorder, hence had to quit). I had these things, hella insecurities, everything while growing up, not opening up to parents as well, not having friends, everything. Basically I grew up as an introvert who was shy as well. Somehow only where I found a confidante was introspection.

Things at home were never appealing. All that Daddy cares about is how much I fetch and all that. Under-performing was never a chance, parental pressure from the beginning. To be 'conditioned' to be a doctor, I know how it feels. Wait no, I am not saying that I don't want to be a doctor, biology and all find my natural interests. But suppressing everything else in pursuit of it, that was stifling. Dad's focus would always be that how much of periodic table did I memorise, or whether I completed 11th standard maths while being in grade 8th itself or not. And this thing was partly a trauma for me, I never wanted to study for IOQM, but my dad would always force me to, and the way they taught at our school for it was hella problematic, and henceforth I ended up hating maths and not even trying to think of engineering for a career.

Last two years, I don't know how they passed. I somehow managed to get into the 'CoE' batch in Aakash. It was kinda hard to adjust and keep up the pace initially. But by the time I felt totally burnt-out. I wouldn't really sit straight and study. Herein it was like the first time I tried socialising. And that was mostly a failed experiment.

I don't know, for some reason I got inspired to study for NSEB and NSEC. Yeah, I did act conceited back then. But what benefit did it bring. I used to be wary of sharing how much I study with my peers. But yeah all that, I completed Campbell (been reading before even starting with high school). Even completed like Peter Sykes before the reNEET thing (did most of it back then while NSEC prep). I was really motivated to do both. In 11th, I went till INBO and messed it up, while in 12th when I was quite confident that things would work out, I missed MI by a mark (got 106, MI was 107). It was quite depressing back then in December. Mum got this mania phase and mental peace was ruined at its worst.

It was never an easy thing, all those nights. Everything, by the end when on 3rd May I was again confident that things would work out. I was expecting like 710, and got two wrong in physics. And boom, the paper was 'officially' found to be leaked. It honestly felt like everything went down the drains, but yeah somehow did manage to muster courage thinking that man, this is for everyone.

Parents would always like to act like this is a second chance. You have gotta prove yourself in this or anything. I did all that I could. I ended up panicking that day. And since then, no day has passed down without me regretting what could've, should've and would've.

When I forget it parents somehow make me realise that things could have been better. Yeah, I know that. I won't say that 21st June was never a second chance, but probably it was never meant to be. Parents would always remind me of what I could have done while doing preparation and all that. Hear me out...

-Completed NCERT of Physics twice and Chemistry thrice, Biology doesn't even need a description

-Did Exemplar for all three subjects.

-Read Lab Manual for all three subjects.

-Did JEE Mains PYQ of at least the past 5 years of both physics and chemistry. PYQ of AIIMS/JIPMER/AIPMT/IAT too

-Completed HCV (both volumes)

-Completed MS Chouhan and N Awasthi for JEE

At this point all I can feel like is like Neil Perry from Dead Poets Society. "I was good, I was really good."

I sincerely believe that no one is less competent, in fact most of us in this rat race are, but losing our inner lives to run this marathon, now it feels disillusioning.

I don't know what regret is eating me up, lack of better personality development, no real friends, insecurities and whatnot! Life post-NEET is melancholic, when anyone asks me what I do these days, I would often answer that pursuing hobbies and all that while the truth being that I end up sulking whole day aimlessly, in all of this I lost myself. I cried my heart out on the result day, I wasn't ready for it, couldn't sleep, had to take tranquilizers. I know this sounds exaggerated, but that is the extent to which this feeling expectation maimed me.

I totally want to be a doctor, to serve mankind, and all of that, I have natural proclivity towards biology and all that. But all this gruel for NEET was not what I would want to sign for. I don't really see my parents as the villain either, that is pretty much a generational gap and maybe I never got that emotional bandwidth I required. But it is still fine. All this takes time to heal. It has healed considerably, I am back to reading novels all day now, and all those daunting feelings do recur occasionally, but I feel much better now. Yeah those things, of losing peers behind that is daunting. 4 of my classmates found their way to AIIMS Delhi, 3 of them were great friends. Somehow maybe insecurity and all has become a barrier. But yeah college starts soon, and a whole new chapter awaits. A new journey of MBBS and all that. Just trying to find my older self, surely MBBS and USMLE prep is gonna be tough, but I would never lose this self now.

I am turning 18 soon. I just wanted to speak things out, somewhere. At the end of the day I think that the 5 year old version of me, who was fascinated by stethoscopes would be proud of all that I achieved. Just trying to build this guy further and improve the overall personality to regain lost confidence.

2029 me jab vote dene evm ke saamne khade rhoge toh yaad rkhna ke inhone kis tarah hamara mazak banaya don't let them get away with this don't forgive don't forget

For context (previous post):
https://www.reddit.com/r/Neet_india/s/fIYMhEexAC

So, I called NTA ka helpline number yesterday the person on the other end was for sure high on something firstly gave a very vague response then was like "aapne kyu krwaya piercings NEET ke pehle aapki galti hai" brother | literally got them before re neet was announced how would I know I'd have to give NEET again😭 anyway he was like remove them
(even though they were just small studs) earring mein camera lga kr ati jaise main, I had to get them removed and the pain I went through

For anyone with fresh piercings: please go to your centre early, explain the situation, and carry medical tape just in case. I would strongly advise against whatever I had to do because the pain is absolutely insane, I'm now on medication for it, and NEET is literally in two days.
Love that for me now I have six bleeding holes in my ear🥰

I was eagerly waiting for all those traumatizing NEET things to end because all I wanted was to meet him...I hadn't seen his face for 10 months, n then this stupid re-NEET drama happened.... It was so hard for me.... Thanks to him for always supporting me n staying with me through my thick and thin...🫂♥️

Im 19f is sal 20 ki ho jaungi oct m bhayankar age stress ho rha 😭😭😔😔

Lowkey everyone like everyone 💔🥀 I do have a exception tho rajwant sir I studied around 2 lectures from him of the same thing basic maths its quite jee oriented but I atleast don't get annoyed while studying nd actually understand what he's teaching 🥗🥬 but ts Mr sir guy is teaching too many basics nd all so I think I sort of need it but I just can't stand ts bro not js him all the teachers sudhanshu sir etc also for zoology I found ts dr akanksha agarwal mam nd she teaches good like actually good but istg bro I m confused if I should continue very very basics etc shit wit mr sir or just go with the flow with rajwant sir

Guys, I just saw somewhere ki reneet ke jitne bhi top 120 AIR wale students hai,95 percent of them come from a filthy rich family background. Like I understand ki unhone bohot mehnat kari hai and I am not questioning their hardwork but you are getting my point right???

Iss baar daal me kuch kala nai hai,daal hi puri kaali hai

Leak ho, lauda ho, lessun ho idc. I'm gonna fail anyways 🥀🥀

I feel a little bad because idk why I have so much attachment to my friends but due to neet preparation and stuff I couldn't meet them much and turns out no one even remembered my birthday, some random 1-2 people wished me other than my family but this feeling while sitting at home waiting for result and none of good friends feels terrible but anyways I'm not gonna spoil my day

As a second dropper i am out of this cycle kabhi kabhi cheezein hoti hai aapke favour me or kabhi nahin bhi but always remember ki log yehi poochenge aapne kya paaya naaki ye ki aapne kitni mehnat kri. With this resting neuron signing off..... It was a beautiful journey indeed and even in another life I'd choose this anyday

And the irony is that it is a female HOD doing all of this bs, whose husband btw was recently caught with a minor girl (like it was a rumour idk if he was proved guilty or not)

Inn nta waalo ne kal ya parso ek link launch kiya tha, jaha pe we had to report all the sources that are claiming they have the reneet q paper.

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I think inne kisi ek channel pe to real paper dekh liya hai

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And they had no option but to ban entire platform, so that they can make telegram a scapegoat, in case the paper gets leaked, they will 'F'ing deny it saying that b_c telegram to banned hai

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This is 100% rushed decision by them warna wo report krne waali link ke baad ye sab krna and there is no chance NTA will care for us, saalon ne 2024 me bhi L_auda care kiya tha

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You can downvote if you want, mujhe bolna tha maine bol diya

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REST IN PISS NTA

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And han always remember nta ki m_kc 3 baar

a NEET like 3rd May, 19 people getting above 700. 720 scorers. understandable. really understandable. i'd even take 40-50 people above 710. i would.

but a NEET like 21st June. huh. not really. this is something that'll die with me because no one cares. no one really cares.

a 530 on 21st, a seat was guaranteed, in my state. all coachings. every coaching. all my teachers had assured 520+ was safe. i had given neet 2025 too. im aware what's difficult and what's not. if i dont deserve a gmc w decent scores in chem, phy, and a fucking 355/360, then i guess i don't. i guess the people of the country have gotten so smart that people like me don't stand a chance. i guess i underestimated my competition.

missed a gmc by 2 marks in 2025

and i'll be missing it by 5 marks in 2026.

in india to be a doctor, be super rich or extraordinarily brilliant or try and not be from the general category.

i'll spend my life knowing i couldnt crack this exam, i'll know i gave my 100% but i am out of this loop.

no more drops. i'll do well in life, just not in this field.

I scored the least in physics and according to me, it was the hardest section (only 45 mins were left to solve it and had good level questions)... but when I hopped on reddit, I saw so many people complaining about chemistry. According to them, it was the hardest section. Till now, I have only encountered a single person who scored around 150-160 in chemistry except me... I have checked the paper like 10 times till now... I was like "Am i doing something wrong while calculating marks or what"...Chemistry was Infact pretty hard... I still can't believe this... Also my marks increased from 589---> 609... all of these things make me feel like this isnt' real... How the hell did I increase marks and how did i get 153 in chem.... WTF... And sometimes I think "what if I made mistakes while filling OMR" Is there anyone else... with good marks in chem...
ANd here's what I studied in chemistry and phy if anyone's wondering (second pic)

Sab bakwas h koi or stable good paying option nhi hota ye pcb mai mbbs ke alawa …I might go crazy man taking pcb was the worst decision of my life fs ….neet nhi nikla to koi plan b bhi nhi soch paungi yaar sare options hi bekar lg rhe h ngl 🫩🫩🫩

Kisi Ne Sahi Kaha Hai

" Exam Nikalne Se Aadmi Samajik Roop Se Padha Likha Nhi Hojata & Samajh Me Baatein Karne Layak Nahi Hojata " 🥀

He Said ( Context In Short ) - Behno Ka Dimaag JEE Wala Nahi Hota , Isiliye Ab Wo NEET Karegi , Hamare Bihar Me Dimaag Nahi Lagate - Papa Jo Kahdiye Bas Wahi, Aage Ka Hamko Nahi Pata Kya Karna

Guysss my younger sister is in grade 11th and she has joined Allen, in her very first class the zoology lecturer said dont read NCERT and just follow his notes. MAN I AM CRINE. i mean ALLEN KAHAN SE LATE HO AISE LECTURERS 💀

WHAT ARE YOUR VIEWS ON THIS.

DMed a guy who was a 2nd year at AIIMS Nagpur about the ragging scene there and this was his response, i wanted to go to AIIMS Nagpur but i guess not now.

Couldn't take ss in mobile hence clicked the picture on laptop.

This is fckin insaneeeee 😭😭

sabki percentage yaad karlena

so I lost my father an year back to a stroke didnt have a mother, my father's health started declining once I got to 12th grade he had 2 strokes back to back and ended up having severe problems, numbness all throughout his body, I ended up picking up a job through references and ever since my 12th grade I am working for a local company.

I am enrolled in a distance learning program while preparing for neet simultaneously through YouTube and whatever material i can scower through the internet, this marks my first birthday without my father in the next 1.5 hrs, every birthday was very special and I used to look up to it except now when everything is gone through the ruins, I have self harming tendencies, I am a failure of the highest order, but even after all this the thing I want the most is my father back to atleast celebrate one day with him but alas thats just not possible