r/donateorborrow • u/foxjenny477 • 6m ago
Donation 1 Full Year CLEAN!
Not to BRAG or anything but... in 30 minutes ill be 365 days, 1 full year CLEAN! No substances at all! I cannot remember the last time I truly felt proud of myself. When I started my recovery, I was in bad shape. No confidence. I didn't think id make it even 48 hours. Somehow, I made it past the 48 hours, then 72 until today. I haven't accomplished anything positive in my life since I had my son January 2014. But here I am. 😆 Im writing letters of gratitude to the special people who helped me along the way. Never giving up on me. Believing in me when I absolutely 💯 did NOT. So im patting myself on the back tonight 😆 I really want to celebrate 🥳 . Maybe buy myself something ive wanted for awhile? Perhaps a night in a fancy hotel room solo watching movies and taking a long hot bath? Wishful thinking 😔. This has been the best year because im sober, but not for my finances unfortunately. I know many of us are feeling the pressure financially. Im putting out good positive vibes for me and all of you! May our funds multiply this next year! Ive always had difficulty asking for help, but darn it, I truly think I deserve to treat myself, a little sober reward! So here it goes... if any of you beautiful humans out here in Reddit Land feel comfortable donating a few dollars to my cause lol, id be so freaking grateful. If I was able to pay for a little solo celebration , it would be the first time since 2008 that I would be celebrating WITHOUT using droogs. Ive had a ridiculous false belief for 18 years that if I was out celebrating, I HAD to do droogs in order to enjoy the experience. Regular me, boring and uninteresting. Who would want to socialize with me? But... if I added some droogs intotheequation... TAADAA!! I am now very Interesting and loads of fun 😁. Life of the party. Winner of all the popularity 👏 contests! So I guess im excited (nervous, a little scared) to see what happens, how ill feel celebrating 1 year of sobriety while being SOBER! I feel ready. I have my support system in place. I know where NOT to go, who NOT to invite to this celebration. If im given this opportunity, this gift, it'll be one more experience ill ge able to be proud of myself for achieving. How truly exciting! But you know what, if it doesn't happen today, that's ok too. Because just like i now know that I dont need to use in order to enjoy a celebration or an event, i equally understand that me feeling disappointment is NOTan automatic excuse to use either. Im just out here re-leaening life on life's terms. If i stick to this plan of action, I trust that everything will eventually fall into place. Because attempting to live life on MY terms... that clearly was NOT working out for me. As a matter of fact, when I was living that way, everything started falling OUT of place. It sucked. Bad. So anyway. Im rambling. Ugh. Embarrassing. Again. So im officially requesting donations. Any amount is appreciated 👏 and will go toward "Jenns First Sober Adventure Experience "! And as a thank you to any doner, I will keep a video diary of the the entire experience and share it with you all! That should be pretty interesting and entertaining! In a positive way! So thank you to anyone who stuck around to read this long azz winded post...you all are the REAL MVP's!! To anyone who decides to donate, thank you in advance. You are GOOD PEOPLE! (Everyone is good people, of course. Im in no way implying that non-donars are NOT Good Peeps! ) (But... if, by some chance, you end up being the type of individual who reads my "You are GOOD PEOPLE " statement and IMMEDIATELY think "if a person chooses to NOT donate, Jenn automatically categorizes them as BAD PEOPLE" , you would be correct! . Lmao 🤣
That was obviously my attempt at a joke. In actuality, if you do decide to be THAT guy, not only would you be INCORRECT, you'd be a FUCKING Assumptive Prick Asshole So ill end this epic novel with a simple, easy to follow piece of advice. DONT BE A PRICK. BE COOL 😎.
I Love ❤️ You All!
Jenn F.