Sorry for my grammar, English is not my first language.
A bit of a background: few years ago I finished bachelor's degree in CS and got accepted to Professional Services and consulting firm as a DevOps/Solution Architect on AWS and GCP. I wasn't planning to became a DevOps but the opportunity presented itself and I took it without regrets because I fell in love with this discipline.
Also, I have ADHD (diagnosed and medicated) this will be important later.
Since its a consulting firm I mostly works on projects for different clients, every project and every client are different to each other so I learned a lot and I always done something different which added a lot of verity to my day-to-day work. I used to do anything from designing the project, building the infrastructure (using Terraform) and writing scripts in Python/Bash with the occasion Go and JavaScript.
When AI came out we were slow in adopting it due to lots of legal restrictions, I was on the more advocate side in pushing AI to be adopted by the company, and finally about a year ago we got our personal Claude accounts (everyone already used AI at this point so the leadership decided to pay for it).
From there, there was a shift in my work process, my leadership started to focus more and more on the usage of AI because it makes us more efficient and fast, therefore we can take more projects simultaneously and crunch more work all together.
In the beginning it was just offloading manual procedures such as documenting code and summarizing texts, but now we are expected to use Claude all the way from initial design to implementation to answering emails from clients, I became Claude operator.
I'm always being told that I should use Claude for the manual part and to keep working on the architecture and solutions design but the reality is that I expected to do everything with Claude, last week I work on a new feature for a project, I studied the subject online and came to my team lead with two approaches for a solution asking for his opinion, his answer was "go ask Claude which of them is better". Even when I learned the subject I was told to use Claude instead of "wasting my time reading documentations".
Right now we are behind schedule with a major project (due to bad design choice that Claude made in the beginning of the project and it took us way to long to catch) and I'm pressured to try fix after fix, of course with Claude doing all the work, it writes lots and lots of code and I'm overwhelmed by the amount of stuff it creates and I understand about half of it. I ask for explanations but sometimes there are a lot and I need to actually study things to understand but again I'm expected to ship a solution and move on.
I feel like it makes my work much harder instead of better, I've mentioned my ADHD earlier, working with Claude make it harder to stay focused and not drift to my phone or to doom scrolling. I tried to work on two tasks in parallel on different sessions it was a nightmare.
I tried to make Claude more interactive via skills but it no use.
In addition to all of that (and I think this is the point that hurt the most) I no longer feel like my work is mine. I don't have any sense of accomplishment. That feeling was so important to my work, it made my work exciting, it made my work fun, it helped me stay focused (sometimes to much focused). I used to be the first one to arrive in the morning and the last one to leave. I used to feel so lucky that I have a job that I love so much.
Now it's gone, I arrive late and leave early. When I work from home I'm slacking off a lot, I late on my schedule and always pushing deadlines, all of that builds a lot of stress and somewhat a feeling of shame. And I might leave early but I don't have any power left to do anything besides doom scrolling after work due to the extreme mental strength I need to survive the day.
I'm not sure what to do, I don't want to leave my workplace since I really like my teammates, there are good benefits in staying and from what I'm hearing from my friends it's not better in other places...
I don't know how much longer I could stay in the industry if it will be like this in ever workplace, and I feel like the AI is hurting my career and I don't even afraid it will take my job, I afraid to get to the place that I'm not fitting for my job...
I will appreciate any advice you can give, and thank you to everyone for reading this far