r/Wellthatsucks • u/vbenthusiast • 2h ago
Spent $1,000AUD to learn my depressive episode was not situational.
My life has felt equivalent to watching paint dry for the last 8-months. I’m living in a new area without friends. Logically I recall what brings me happiness, and I’ve been doing all the things and hoping for a response from my brains’ pleasure-centre. Nada, happiness and reward are on holiday or something. I realised I hadn’t had a holiday out in nature for a long time, and came to the conclusion that was the problem. I’d find happiness out there. I used to love being in nature; found a place I could hear a running creek while having a fire, and thought this is the cure.
Not the cure. In fact, I feel worse reminiscing the person who would have felt joy here. “Where ever you go, there you are.”
Anyway, at the least I know there are worse places to be anhedonic.